Hi all,
I just don't know what to do any more I feel I just do not want to be here any more and the baby is better off not coming into this world in this situation. I became pregnant to someone who I never thought would just up and leave me in fact he comes in and out my life all the time and emotionally destroys my soul. It feels so much worse now because I am hormonal, I never thought this would happen to me. I am old enough and wise enough to have not got into this situation but I have found my ex knew what he was doing, once I was vulnerable enough he left me and the baby. I feel I haven't got enough strength to keep going. People say to me it isnt that bad and so on but I have never felt this low and I have found when you are this down you don't seem to care about anyone but ending the pain. Every day is so long, I sit in my room on my bed for hours and I can't engage with anything. I cannot see it getting better only worse. I have spoke with my doctor and I am on medication to control my mood but I am so alone, I don't have family and friends can only help so much. This was meant to be a happy time but I feel nothing nothing at all. The fact I have his child makes me sick although I know it is not the babys fault. My entire life has fallen apart and I cannot get my strength back. How can I have allowed myself to let someone make me feel this low?? I need help becuase I can't go on I feel I need it to end.