I've been with DP for nearly 4 years and we have A just turned 3 year old and im 33 weeks pregnant (nearly 34). He struggled with his MH a lot throughout his teens, he medicated with drugs, weed and later cocaine. When we got together we conceived quite fast and obviously unplanned!
After DS was born he started struggling mentally again but it wasn't immediately obvious, maybe I should've noticed but baby had trouble feeding/didn't sleep and I was just exhausted and I thought the same for him. Fast forward to me finding out he was taking drugs and we split briefly, in July 2024 when DS was 18mo DP was sectioned and was diagnosed with bipolar was put on medication and while it was a lot of trial and error he seemed stable after a while and we got back together.
He's not taken drugs for over a year, since he was sectioned. The medication had really helped him and he's really present with me and DS and everythings been fine, he's happy about the pregnacy etc. Every time he used to get an urge he'd put the money he would've spent into savings for a holiday/something for DS/just anything really. I don't think he does it anymore at least not often, it was more just early on
He went out earlier for a few drinks with friends from work, he got back quite drunk and out of it. he's currently asleep, I picked up the trousers he had been wearing and I found a bag of cocaine in his pocket. My head is spinning, DS is asleep, DP is asleep and there's no use waking him when he'll just be out if it and not able to have a proper conversation about it
I just needed to put this somewhere, sorry if this is all over the place. I'm in shock and don't know what to do