My DD hasn?t slept through since birth. Although I don?t get up to feed her I get woken up every night either by my DD or by my partner. After this I find it very hard to sleep which usually equates to 5 to 6 hours sleep per night. I have to get up at 6pm because my partner works in the evenings so I rush to work in time to start at 8am. My day is then full of managing a team of 8 people (6 of who resent me absolutely as I am there manager) as well as managing the expectations of my manager. I have to put the time in to cover the work that the 6 simply don?t do or face up to the fact that I can?t perform in my role. Along with people management the rest of my day is spent designing conceptual object structures for various computer systems and going to meetings. Both of which involve a lot of thinking and are nigh on impossible while being completely spent every day. At the end of a fun day at the office I have to either walk out of the meeting I am in, destroying any credibility I have in the company, or slope off while my happy team work on. I then get to drive ,completely over the speed limit, in order to get home in 45 minutes so my partner can leave for work. When I get home I get to deal with my youngest daughter usually screaming and the mess that the eldest two have invariably created. I then have to deal with at least an hour of my youngest following me around screaming unless of course I carry her for an hour. After which I put her to bed. Although not obviously late enough for my partners liking. Then I get to deal with my eldest daughter who will not go to bed without a fight ever. I then get to do homework with my stepson after which if I?m really lucky I get to spend 45 minutes doing nothing, unless of course I make dinner or decide to turn all the plug sockets off around the house that have been left on or clean the kitchen or wipe the toilet seat clean (as no-one else seems able) or make dinner or do some diy. Then my partner gets home and we eat by which time I have usually had enough of life and just want to vegetate in-front of the TV. I do not get to spend any quality time with my children during the week as I?m t tired yet my partner does every day, somehow she feels that our tasks are comparable. I don?t see how working in a stressful job with people that hate you is comparable to watching your children grow up or playing with them. At the weekend I invariably try and sleep in which is usually impossible due to the drama that is the rest of the house getting up. Plus I usually feel guilty because I know my partner is tired from all the getting up in the night. I do sometimes manage to get a sliver of life back by playing computer games at the weekend but this is usually short lived for the same reasons as trying to sleep in. I have found out that my partner thinks I?m a liar and the reason for her miserable sleeping patterns. I have discovered that she would rather share her feelings with a bunch of stranger than with me and conveys such a hateful streak towards me that I?m surprised she doesn?t just up and leave. To top it all I?ve had hypertension for the past 4 years and am meant to be avoiding stress. I am however planning on getting my own back when I have a stroke and need to be sponge bathed every night.