The past 3 months or so dp has become increasingly angry. He is having outburts where he shouts at me and dc, hits objects and slams doors. According to dp he is feeling very unstable and can't pin point as to the reason why.
After a long talk it came to light that he is finding home life overwhelming. I told dp it feels like he has a lot of disdain and resentment for his life right now and we are all his punching bags. I can't work out if its being a dad, or being with me but the only thing he talks positively off is his job. Im trying my hardest to not take it personally but its hard. Dp said he is begrudging coming home and not having any time to himself. Dc is 2 going on 3 and although we have both expressed frustration in wanting more free time we both concluded we knew this was only temporary and that things will get better. So this sudden relapse has thrown me and although I agree I would like more time to consider me I would never take that out on the people or furniture around me.
Im starting not enjoy dps company. Whenever I talk to him about doing anything nice for dc its always met with a groan and not wanting to. So I just end up taking dc on my own. I can't help but feel like there is something deeper to this. My mind has been racing to things like cheating, maybe he is gay, maybe he just wants to go drinking with his friends ( he had a bad unhealthy lifestyle before dc).
Meanwhile my needs in our relationship are not being met. I feel like im having to put our relationship on hold. Dp disputes he isn't mentally okay right now and I shouldn't leave him because he is down. But we have been together for 6 years and there is always a reason as to why he can never meet my needs and work to put more effort in our relationship.
Im so tired of this. Last time I had a gut instinct he was hiding something it turned out to be true ( it was debt) so I would feel foolish to ignore myself now. Could really use some advice here. Thanks.