Why can't I do the one thing that would make my life easier

[cakefortea22]

And lose weight.

It sounds shallow but everyday I struggle with what to wear. And then go around all day looking at myself in mirrors and reflections in windows and hating what I see. It's so hard to dress this body and feel confident in it. I know from experience that when I weighed less everything seemed simpler and I actually liked seeing my reflection and in photos. Now I sit down and have this massive bulge of a belly in front of me.

It's totally my own fault. As Mimi Maguire says - I am a fucking fat fuck. I love eating. I binge eat. I drink wine a couple days of times a week. I have huge portions. I love carbs. I don't know exercise. I know what I need to do to improve things but I just don't want to because I hate exercising and I love food and wine.

I see countless weight loss threads on here with people listing the fruits and veg and fish and grains they eat and I just think it sounds rubbish. Maybe it's because im not an accomplished cook but i genuinely don't know how I could make those foods feel more appealing to me than a pizza or a Chinese.

I'm starting to think it's something psychological because I don't want to be like this but literally week in week out I repeat the same behaviour. Why? Just why?

@Mojoj fighting the hormones that flood your body telling you that you need to eat more is incredibly hard. Anyone can do will power for a while. But to never let up, ever? It's perfectly possible to undo a month's calorie deficit in an hour's binge.

There's another thread on Mumsnet - "Weight loss for greedy fuckers" sorry don't know how to link - and it's a light humoured support group for those of us who want to lose weight but lack will power.....after all we are greedy fuckers.

I don’t think it’s just about willpower. There’s a huge knowledge gap and lots of people don’t know what healthy food is or how to prepare it. If you’ve not been raised in a family that understands fresh, nutritious, wholesome food then what chance do you have.

OP how are you getting on? X