A HUGE angry rant

[Westpoint]

Apologies for this. I've had the shittest day and this just poured out of me:

I’m ANGRY

I’m mainly sad, I think being sad fuels my anger. WTF should should I be made to feel sad??

I’m sad because:

I seem to responsible for EVERYTHING
Lizzie is dying and I am the only one who looks after her. I don’t want to think of helping her to sleep but I have to because you are being spineless. She is YOUR DOG!

I still can’t forgive you for not being there when Daphne died without us because your FUCKING STUPID WORK CALL WAS MORE IMPORTANT. I will never forgive you for that.

I HAVE FIBROIDS

My husband who works SO FUCKING HARD can’t seem to find time to do anything other than look after himself - think 2 hour massages, going the golf club (the game that he wants me to learn, ostensibly to be part of HIS FUCKING choices, nothing to do with me) OR WATCH FUCKING TV

I am on my OWN ALL THE FUCKING TIME

I have no job anymore. And my ‘husband’ thought it funny to joke at dinner last night with friends that if I didn’t like it then maybe he should give up work and I should go out and provide for us. To be clear here, we moved from the UK to the USA for my husband’s work so I am the embodiment of the trailing spouse.

Er, yeah, like fuck you fucking prick. I AM HERE BECAUSE OF YOU. I AM LITERALLY MAKING YOUR LIFE POSSIBLE. TRUST ME, I WOULD LOOOOOOOOOOOVE TO HAVE MY OWN FUCKING LIFE!

He was pissed off because he was rubbing his eyes like a baby at 9:30pm and I told him that the rest of us had been up for longer than him, His excuse was he got up at 4:30am LAS time. Err, yes dear hubby of mine, that was 7:30am here, much later than any of us got up?! He couldn’t get the fucking time difference.

STOP BUYING FUCKING DOGS (I love my dogs, I just am tied to them)

STOP RUINING MY LIFE

Today you texted me in my only down time getting my nails done to say that Lizzie had wet her nappy. Well, my first thought was that you should have taken her out. But never mind, accidents happen (hence the nappy). Then this evening I go upstairs to an almighty stink because you had just put her piss soaked nappy in the sink for me to deal with.

I asked why you hadn’t taken her out and you lied that you had. YOU FUCKING HADN’T.

FUCK YOU

SHE IS DYING IN FRONT OF YOUR FUCKING EYES AND YOU STILL WANT ME TO DEAL WITH IT FOR YOU LIKE A FUCKING CHILD.

Thinking of you today op and Lizzie. I hope the day is as gentle as possible.

@Westpoint A dog who has to wear a nappy ...That means that she is too ill or in pain to use the garden?

Nappies on dogs are a really bad idea. The urine can scald their skin.

Animals have dignity too, and hate soiling or wetting their beds.

Home euthanasia for dogs is very humane, keeping a dog{Or any animal} going because the human ''Can't bear to let go'' is not kind to the dog.

The animals' needs have to come first, above that of any human.

Sounds like the man you speak of isn't remotely responsible, and should not own an animal if he can't take proper care of it, and that includes being there at the end, with a vet, if the animal is terminally ill and needing a nappy.

@Westpoint The first animal I was 100% responsible for, {Many years ago now} became terminally ill {Osteosarcoma}.
ALL the decisions were on me.

If your husband can't be responsible for an animal at the end of her life, and be with her in a calm and unruffled way {It's bloody hard}, he shouldn't have one.

Good for you for being able to do right by her. x🙏

Sending love to you and Lizzie