Sorry long one. I am a widow and have been with DB for 5 months although we have been close / attracted for over 2 years now.
We went to the rugby last weekend; he had two old friends over to stay with him and I went along to leaving DC with a babysitter. To cut a long story short, over the day much beer was drunk and I really clicked with the three of them (I have always thrived in blokey company). But by the evening I found myself in (very rare) superb form and was admittedly holding court with the two friends who were clearly thinking I was great. I did notice DB getting quieter as the evening progressed but ignored it; I was having fun and took care to keep it very straight - nothing remotely suggestive or leading them on and right up until the end he was interacting as much as his mates.
By 9.30 I had to get the train home; DB insisted on walking me to the station leaving his mates in the pub even though I used to live near the ground. During the 15 min walk and 5 mins waiting for a train he proceeded to berate me for spending the whole day flirting with his mates and completely embarrassing him. I stayed silent mostly but at one point protested at something he was massively exaggerating and he shouted and made me cry. I jumped on the train without saying goodbye, cried all the way home and barely slept that night.
next morning I ignored his ‘how are you messages’ all day. He showed up with flowers on my doorstep at 7pm despite me desperate for an early night. He apologised quite profusely for getting angry and upsetting me, blaming it mostly on the drink but he made it clear that he still thought I had been in the wrong. I stayed silent despite him pushing me to know what I was thinking then excused myself as I needed an early night saying he could stay but really the best thing was for him to leave (he did). We haven’t spoken since although he has messaged and called; I have told him I am fine but need to think about a few things. He has said he is terrified of me calling it off and just wants to speak.
Some background: in the 5 months we have been together we have been incredibly open about our deepest feelings eg me wobbling all over the place about dating too soon and then having a major inferiority conplex about dating him (he is gorgeous, successful and rich and frankly out of my league). But during one of our chats he admitted he could be prone to jealousy and at the time I didn’t take it seriously as I didn’t think we’d get together much less that I could inspire jealousy in him.
so……should I be worried about this episode being the tip of the iceberg; has he has given me an insight into dangerous controlling tendencies? or am I being completely unreasonable and was I actually flirting badly and should have recognised this and can easily avoid a repeat by behaving better.
thoughts please. Thank you.
AIBU?
Was I really flirting or is this controlling
Chayngednayme · 18/03/2023 12:43
Am I being unreasonable?
359 votes. Final results.
POLLTaunterOfWomenInGeneralSaysSayonarastu · 18/03/2023 14:16
You're inventing this "holding court" nonsense.
I was having fun and took care to keep it very straight - nothing remotely suggestive or leading them on and right up until the end he was interacting as much as his mates.
All parties present were interacting & taking part.
Yet another depressingly predictable response from a woman tone-policing another woman.
Sapphire387 · 18/03/2023 14:09
No, it's not that.
People who 'hold court' in social situations seem to think they are wonderfully funny etc, but a lot of the time, it's tiresome for others.
This is people of either sex - it's equally annoying when men do it, and nothing to do with wanting women to be meek or whatever.
herewegoroundthebastardbush · 18/03/2023 13:46
I knew as soon as I read the OP that people would be coming for you for daring to have the confidence to say you were on form and they thought you were great. How some women HATE to see another woman appreciate herself and want to find a way to knock her down, even if that means siding with a jealous bully. Have a word with all of yourselves.
If you've never found yourself in a social situation where you are the centre of approving attention and it not being a case of you flirting, maybe you're just dull not very amusing?
TaunterOfWomenInGeneralSaysSayonarastu · 18/03/2023 14:18
WTF?
What on earth has OP done that's toxic?
CandleInTheStorm · 18/03/2023 14:13
I'm a big champion for women, I'm not a big champion when there's been toxic behaviour on both sides but only the man's side is focused on as being toxic.
TaunterOfWomenInGeneralSaysSayonarastu · 18/03/2023 14:11
It doesn't sound like anything of the sort, it just sounds like you don't believe that women are entitled to equal air time as men.
CandleInTheStorm · 18/03/2023 13:53
Na.
"But by the evening I found myself in (very rare) superb form and was admittedly holding court with the two friends who were clearly thinking I was great."
Definitely sounds like the OP with going over the top. There's a big difference between people thinking you were great and you ^thinking" they thought you were great. Putting words/thoughts in people's mouths/minds like that comes across like the op probably was a bit embarrassing because she has decided her over the top behaviour meant they thought she was great her mind...
If this was reversed, the guy would have his arse handed to him. But because it's a woman, the day of flirting and the ghosting the day after has been swept under the carpet because it's now all about the shouting, which is wrong, of course, but there's fault on both sides here. Jealousy can be horrible too, but it sounds like the op went way over the top to the point of unnecessary.
TaunterOfWomenInGeneralSaysSayonarastu · 18/03/2023 13:41
Speak for yourself.
"Could be construed as flirting" is the key here.
OP knew she wasn't, she even made sure to keep the banter vanilla, & only started to doubt herself when her self-confessedly jealous b/f imposed his interpretation on her.
Conveniently, you omitted that from your sex-reversed scenario.
You'd have been more honest to start with "Girlfriend who has already admitted she is prone to jealousy ..."
CandleInTheStorm · 18/03/2023 13:28
If you reversed the roles here, it would sound like this...
Girlfriend takes her boyfriend along for the day to meet her 3 female friends. Boyfriend really hits it off with her 3 friends to the point it could be construed he was flirting with them more and more as beer flowed. Girlfriend gets quiet as the day goes on, but her boyfriend just dismisses it and carried on. On the way to the train station, the girlfriend calls her boyfriend out on the flirting and (unrightly) gets shouty. Boyfriend gets on train without saying bye then proceeds to ghost his girlfriend the next day when she tries to make contact. Girlfriend then ends up having to go to boyfriends place, but boyfriend more or less turns her away. Girlfriend then has her feelings of being annoyed that her boyfriend spent the day flirting with her friends dismissed as "ah she's just jealous, run!" and it all the focused gets put on the shouting to him rather than his behaviour before and after the shouting.
The drinking may have masked your perception of how flirty you were and who wants to sit there whilst their partner spends the day flirting with their friends! It's never ok to shout like that to your partner like he did to you, but the next day, you should have just replied, "I feel upset, we will talk later." Instead, you ghosted for the day, which is horrible and have left him scared and hanging on.
Sorry, but if this had been posted as a role reversed, the man would have his arse handed to him!
Sapphire387 · 18/03/2023 14:19
I'm not inventing anything - she literally said it in her OP:
But by the evening I found myself in (very rare) superb form and was admittedly holding court with the two friends who were clearly thinking I was great.
TaunterOfWomenInGeneralSaysSayonarastu · 18/03/2023 14:16
You're inventing this "holding court" nonsense.
I was having fun and took care to keep it very straight - nothing remotely suggestive or leading them on and right up until the end he was interacting as much as his mates.
All parties present were interacting & taking part.
Yet another depressingly predictable response from a woman tone-policing another woman.
Sapphire387 · 18/03/2023 14:09
No, it's not that.
People who 'hold court' in social situations seem to think they are wonderfully funny etc, but a lot of the time, it's tiresome for others.
This is people of either sex - it's equally annoying when men do it, and nothing to do with wanting women to be meek or whatever.
herewegoroundthebastardbush · 18/03/2023 13:46
I knew as soon as I read the OP that people would be coming for you for daring to have the confidence to say you were on form and they thought you were great. How some women HATE to see another woman appreciate herself and want to find a way to knock her down, even if that means siding with a jealous bully. Have a word with all of yourselves.
If you've never found yourself in a social situation where you are the centre of approving attention and it not being a case of you flirting, maybe you're just dull not very amusing?
CandleInTheStorm · 18/03/2023 14:23
Silent treatment is toxic behaviour.
TaunterOfWomenInGeneralSaysSayonarastu · 18/03/2023 14:18
WTF?
What on earth has OP done that's toxic?
CandleInTheStorm · 18/03/2023 14:13
I'm a big champion for women, I'm not a big champion when there's been toxic behaviour on both sides but only the man's side is focused on as being toxic.
TaunterOfWomenInGeneralSaysSayonarastu · 18/03/2023 14:11
It doesn't sound like anything of the sort, it just sounds like you don't believe that women are entitled to equal air time as men.
CandleInTheStorm · 18/03/2023 13:53
Na.
"But by the evening I found myself in (very rare) superb form and was admittedly holding court with the two friends who were clearly thinking I was great."
Definitely sounds like the OP with going over the top. There's a big difference between people thinking you were great and you ^thinking" they thought you were great. Putting words/thoughts in people's mouths/minds like that comes across like the op probably was a bit embarrassing because she has decided her over the top behaviour meant they thought she was great her mind...
If this was reversed, the guy would have his arse handed to him. But because it's a woman, the day of flirting and the ghosting the day after has been swept under the carpet because it's now all about the shouting, which is wrong, of course, but there's fault on both sides here. Jealousy can be horrible too, but it sounds like the op went way over the top to the point of unnecessary.
TaunterOfWomenInGeneralSaysSayonarastu · 18/03/2023 13:41
Speak for yourself.
"Could be construed as flirting" is the key here.
OP knew she wasn't, she even made sure to keep the banter vanilla, & only started to doubt herself when her self-confessedly jealous b/f imposed his interpretation on her.
Conveniently, you omitted that from your sex-reversed scenario.
You'd have been more honest to start with "Girlfriend who has already admitted she is prone to jealousy ..."
CandleInTheStorm · 18/03/2023 13:28
If you reversed the roles here, it would sound like this...
Girlfriend takes her boyfriend along for the day to meet her 3 female friends. Boyfriend really hits it off with her 3 friends to the point it could be construed he was flirting with them more and more as beer flowed. Girlfriend gets quiet as the day goes on, but her boyfriend just dismisses it and carried on. On the way to the train station, the girlfriend calls her boyfriend out on the flirting and (unrightly) gets shouty. Boyfriend gets on train without saying bye then proceeds to ghost his girlfriend the next day when she tries to make contact. Girlfriend then ends up having to go to boyfriends place, but boyfriend more or less turns her away. Girlfriend then has her feelings of being annoyed that her boyfriend spent the day flirting with her friends dismissed as "ah she's just jealous, run!" and it all the focused gets put on the shouting to him rather than his behaviour before and after the shouting.
The drinking may have masked your perception of how flirty you were and who wants to sit there whilst their partner spends the day flirting with their friends! It's never ok to shout like that to your partner like he did to you, but the next day, you should have just replied, "I feel upset, we will talk later." Instead, you ghosted for the day, which is horrible and have left him scared and hanging on.
Sorry, but if this had been posted as a role reversed, the man would have his arse handed to him!
SadOrWickedFairy · 18/03/2023 14:32
You seem to have a problem with a woman being on top vivacious form in mixed company. Maybe examine your internalised misogyny, instead of seeking to bring OP down to what you view as acceptable levels of feminine meekness & compliance.
How do you know the OP was on top vivacious form?
Holding court says to me that the OP was dominating the proceedings, social interaction is a two/three/more way action, not one person doing all the talking no matter how vivacious they may be.
5128gap · 18/03/2023 14:42
Well, tbf, one person's drunken 'superb form' is very often another person's embarrassment. Your phrase 'holding court' is quite telling as it does suggest you enjoyed being the centre of attention, rather than an equal participant in the evening. Nothing wrong with that if you're with someone who is happy for you to dominate the evening, and who doesn't find you embarrassing. Sounds like this one isn't that guy though.
He absolutely shouldn't have shouted at you, and for that, plus your different ideas of social behaviour, I'd say move on, as it's not going to change and you shouldn't need to suppress yourself for him.
SadOrWickedFairy · 18/03/2023 14:36
I did notice DB getting quieter as the evening progressed but ignored it;
contradicts this:
I was having fun and took care to keep it very straight - nothing remotely suggestive or leading them on and right up until the end he was interacting as much as his mates.
Either he was interacting the whole time or he went quiet and OP ignored it. Can't be both.
Conkersinautumn · 18/03/2023 14:38
He apologised but then took that all away by suggesting he thought he was right anyway. He's just going through the motions of apologising with no self.reflection at all. He's not worth the effort, he's more than jealous , he wants you to be cardboard cutout silence. He also expects that as he's done his performative apology all should be fine. Just leave this behind you.
TaunterOfWomenInGeneralSaysSayonarastu · 18/03/2023 15:01
He didn't have an issue with OP being on superb form, he had an issue with his own jealousy & conviction that she was flirting.
5128gap · 18/03/2023 14:42
Well, tbf, one person's drunken 'superb form' is very often another person's embarrassment. Your phrase 'holding court' is quite telling as it does suggest you enjoyed being the centre of attention, rather than an equal participant in the evening. Nothing wrong with that if you're with someone who is happy for you to dominate the evening, and who doesn't find you embarrassing. Sounds like this one isn't that guy though.
He absolutely shouldn't have shouted at you, and for that, plus your different ideas of social behaviour, I'd say move on, as it's not going to change and you shouldn't need to suppress yourself for him.
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