I really feel for you OP. I went through all this way back when they first introduced PIP, and it was an absolute nightmare, so I totally understand how you are feeling. I even asked my GP for assistance, and received a phone call back saying that she had already written one letter and wasn't allowed to do anything further! I told her I was suicidal, and all she said was 'I'm sorry, but I can't help'! Thankfully my DH was wonderful, and incredibly supportive, as were Citizen's Advice, and my local MP at the time. One thing which CAB suggested I do, was write a daily, almost minute by minute diary of my days for a couple of weeks. They also encouraged my DH to keep one, which not only would verify what my life was like, but also showed how much he had to do for me each day. We prepared all this, and arrived at the Court early in order to hand in our further evidence. However, upon arrival the usher, when given my name said 'Oh, we've been trying to reach you, but presumably you left home before 9am', which I confirmed. I asked why they wanted me, and he told me that having read through my file, the judges had already found in my favour, and they were trying to call me to tell me not to bother going in! If only my case had been judged properly in the first place, I would never have been in a position where I felt suicidal, and made my DH scared every time I was in the bathroom for any length of time in case I took an overdose, or slashed my wrists. So please, please, don't give up, you may well find that it's no where near as bad as you're imagining, and if you can get someone else to advocate on your behalf, I'm sure the tribunal will go your way. As others have said, these things are designed to put all but the most desperate of people off claiming, which is an absolute travesty, but unfortunately in order to get what we're entitled to, we have to go through their ridiculous games. I absolutely hate the way that these things are dragged out too, just another sign of the wasted money and inefficiency of government bodies these days. I know that doesn't help you through the waiting, but maybe it might be worth your while trying some relaxation videos online, to try and help you relax a bit, as I feel really confident that having come this far, they will find in your favour. Wishing you all the luck in the world.