Lol, who says I believe in anything supernatural?
Yes I’ve read some of those. There’s no conclusive proof though😀. Just peoples thoughts on life and the cosmos. There’s a million more out there just as convincing.
The thing is you will be drawn to what you want to believe.
you see, you’ve probably been drawn to a lack of meaning as a way of coping with a lack of control. Read some Jung, some Blake, some Plato. Some Plotinus
I've read all of those.
I think you are confusing knowledge and rational analysis with unfounded belief.
The onus is on the person positing a belief to demonstrate plausible evidence that it is true. No religion has ever done this. Which is why conversations with religious people go around in circles: when their assertions are examined, it always becomes clear that there is no foundation other than "just because".
Philosophy is rational analysis, not stories that they demand you sign up to believing. Philosophy is about examining what we can and can't know, and accepting that, and finding a way to live with that uncertainty, rather than trying to make up a magical solution to it, if you can only believe hard enough. Philosophy/ science and religion are opposites.