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Sorry Xenia...

588 replies

duchesse · 02/02/2008 16:58

...for starting that thread when I didn't believe you existed (and I genuinely didn't). I've done some proper research now, and realise that you are real person with fantastic real achievement. I apologise unreservedly for my previous thread, which was genuinely not designed to get at you since I did not believe you existed. I am aghast and incredibly impressed at how much you have achieved, and look forward to sparring with you again some time...

OP posts:
karen999 · 05/02/2008 09:19

We do all have the same sort of problems in life. When I got divorced I did not feel any sense of failure at all. I just picked myself up and moved on. But then I have never put any pressure on myself to always be the best and to be a success at everything....some things work out, some things dont. As for being a role model, I hope I am for my daughters. I will encourage and support them all the way in whatever they choose to do, whatever that may be. However, I dont believe that if I were a SAHM that this would discourage them from wanting to go out and have successful careers. It didnt do that for me or my sister, but tbh I loved the fact that my mum was a SAHM mum.

Rosylily · 05/02/2008 09:38

My mum was a sahm totally and now in turn I am a sahm (and artist and reasonably intelligent) but one sister has a brilliant career and juggles it really brilliantly with family, my other sister works part time and is run ragged by the juggling.
I know I couldn't hold down a job but I have a vocation and I'll chase it up more as the children get to school stage.
Having choice is key.

chocolatedot · 05/02/2008 10:14

At times my mum was a SAHM, at other times she was a brilliant high-flying businesswoman. I worked for 20+ years in the City, at the moment I am a SAHM, next year that will change again into something between the two. Surely the point is that nothing in life is set in stone and it's frankly ludicrous to be so prescriptive about what is "right".

I'd also like to see girls on council estates wanting to be Prime Minsiter etc, as indeed I would boys!

Rosylily · 05/02/2008 10:41

My sister who struggles with the juggling can't bare to be stuck at home with children, she thinks I'm mad and I think she is mad but I am not sitting serenely and smugly enjoying sahmhood, it is doing my head in and I am longing to pursue my own things but I just know that I can't do it all at the same time, I don't have that much stamina!
It would be good if more men did some staying at home stints I think.

lucyellensmum · 05/02/2008 10:41

Xenia, im sorry for this but, you brought it up - "On women getting good jobs I would like to see girls from council estates wanting to be prime minster, surgeons, running companies and I hope we can make all our daughters feel those choices are open to them and they should go for them rather than them saying women become housewives and men work because that's the role model they see at home. Once it is as likely a woman as man does a lot of things as is increasingly so then we don't need to worry so much.

Some very clever children are artistic and do well at academic schools. Some children are good at art and music and not very clever and I am sure parents try to pick the right schools for them. I have never said human beings aren't all entitled to equal rights under the law. I believe they are entitled to that but I do think we're all born very different and that any system which thinks they can make us all clones with the same IQ, same level of good or bad looks, same income, is doomed to failure. "

WTF???? All the while we have a teired education system then it is highly unlikely that children (boys or girls) from council estates, average working class families, etc will EVER be prime minister, or even get a foot into parliment. I am reasonably intelligent, and have a PhD to prove it. I was raised on a council estate, my mother was a cleaner and my father a railway worker. I went to the local comprehensive school (albeit a catholic one), was systematically bullied for being well spoken and a bit of a swat. It didn't take me long to find every excuse i could not to go to school. I left school having not sat my O levels even. I wonder if it would have been different if i had gone to the local private school (a very high profile public school). Whether i wouldnt have been bullied or the school would have dealt with it appropriately instead of my being labelled a pain the arse because my parents were always at the school tittle tattling to the head!
So there is already a divide, regardless of whether my mother worked. If she had a better job than she did they still wouldnt have been able to afford private school - so what, must I blame my mother now?

I feel so very strongly about private school - why Xenia are your children entitled to a better education than mine, simply because i have less money? I know that is a simplistic argument, but that is fundamentally what it boils down to. It is reasonable to expect that a child with less intelligence but a better education will do better than a child with high intelligence and poor education.

Also, expectations are not just set by our parents, its society. I AM an intelligent woman. I am a SAHM, and whilst my DD is little that is my choice. But i still don't have the confidence to chase that high flying job that im more than qualified to do. But we both know i have issues, so i cant really use myself as an example here.

Your last paragraph made me die laughing (well almost)"I do think we're all born very different and that any system which thinks they can make us all clones with the same IQ, same level of good or bad looks, same income, is doomed to failure" But isnt that exactly what you want us to do - we should all go out and get high powered high paying jobs in order to send the right message to our daughters about what is expected of them. If we don't do this, not only have we let our daughters down, we have let the whole of the human race down and any human suffering lies at our lazy SAHM feet!!

I think that is the key word here EXPECTATIONS, i think a truly happy person will only listen to their own expectations. Not their parent's, not societies, but to their own heart.

The toilet has to be cleaned, someone has to do it - i tend to be the chief toilet cleaner in this house - even when i worked beyond full time. I honestly don't think my DP has ever done it. I'm not sure why that is, he does pretty much everything else (i do it mostly now because im home). Thing is, i do actually quite like cleaning the toilet - its cathartic. I like the shineyness of it all. Do i feel put upon? No, not at all - often i can be on mnet being bone idle and DP will be running me a bath!! I just think it worked out that way, i hate housework and if i could afford it i would hire a cleaner. Toilet cleaning is just one of the household chores that i hate the least. I know plenty of men who clean the toilet though - its not a valid argument. I think feminism has (or at least should have) moved on a little since then.

Now im cross with myself, i said i woudlnt get involved, i said i woudlnt post an argument with you on this thread, because i hate that this has become personal. I like you, honestly i really do.

But don't you tire of the same old argument again and again and again? The problem with doing that is, you end up contradicting yourself. I'm going to go and clean the toilet now as a form of self punishment (good catholic girl that i am)

Piffle · 05/02/2008 10:44

I am amused that you think I'm settling Xenia. And that I may in some way be putting my daughters future choices and ambitions back.
I chose to stay at home, I find that liberating. My relationship with DP does not take a his money approach at all.
He is special, I have seen many husbands who do take this attitude.

I applaud women that work hard and succeed, at the expense of their familes and marriages or not, because as you say Xenia, rightly, they are putting women (in general) ahead in the view of the world.
But I know it's not for me, just now. I am contemplating retraining in a profession which will bring me a reasonable income, proide me with job satisfaction and that accomdates my main and most important job as a mother to three spectacular kids.

As quoted in Judaism, (and on Terry Wogan this morning)
True wealth is being satisfied with what you have.
I am truly satisfied

chocolatedot · 05/02/2008 11:00

Lucyellensmum, your post just SO sums up why I actually get rather upset by Xenia's posts. Even though my background is an awful lot closer to Xenia's than yours in terms of wealth, opportunity and education, I just find her views extraordinarily blinkered, ill-informed and, I can imagine to many people, hurtful.

I send two of my 3 kids to private schools but it isn't without angst and I make damn sure they understand the circumstances in which most people live.

sophiewd · 05/02/2008 11:06

I would much rather my daughter sees me albeit as a homemaker then doesn't see me at all because I am out working all hours in a high pwered job. My mother didn't work, didn't stop any of us going on to university and now we run a very successful business from home that enables us to have a fantastic quality of life and see and do an awful lot of our child soon to be children.

chrissnow · 05/02/2008 11:12

I think I am setting my daughter's a fine role model thank you very much. Wealth and success can't always be judged by money, possesions and corporate success. We have a wealth of love and laughter, we have the possessions we need and a few we just wanted. Corporate success for now is my DH's bag. Mine can wait. Surely you are doing women a huge disservice to suggest that they can't be successful past 40? If I so choose to pursue it when the girls are at school then I damn well will. As yet I'm undecided. SAHMism can sometimes be a sacrifice (on the bad days) but generally not. If I am giving my children love, confidence and they are learning stuff I don't think they would at nursery then I am giving them a gift for the future. They will be strong independent intelligent women more than capable of being astronauts, prime ministers, doctors lawyers or whatsoever they choose. Or maybe (god forbid) they'll too fall in love, have children and wait a while. What I will have given them is the self confidence to listen to their hearts and not somebody elses opinion.
Sorry if I can't feel ashamed of that (maybe I'm just too thick and put upon)

lucyellensmum · 05/02/2008 11:21

I think the main reason why I personally get upset at Xenia's posts is that i don't think that she is a lone campaigner against the SAHM. There are plenty of other WOMEN (thankfully not all) who do make SAHMs feel inadequate for not doing it all. I come across it an awful lot. The "oh i just couldnt stay at home all day with the children, i would simply go mad - it must be so dull" Yeah yeah, my job was pretty dull at times too. Ironically, no man has ever made me feel that way, regardless of my choice. I have been a working mum in the past and i was never made to feel guilty about it (why should i) but as a SAHM i am made to feel like a selfish, unproductive, useless couch potato. Why does it have to be that way? I'm not an earth mother, i dont thrive in front of the aga (quite envious of those who do to be honest) but my DD is two and a half and will be starting school next september - what is so bad about me wanting to be with her while i can?

chocolatedot · 05/02/2008 11:27

Oh I love that old chestnut "I have to go back to work because I need the intellectual challenge" (unlike you who are obviously thick). Funnily enough I continue to get my intellectual stimulation from the same places I always got it, challenging books, plays and films, intelligent debate with friends, Radio 4 and so on.

Rosylily · 05/02/2008 11:49

The trick is definately to make a really good go of whatever you do.
My mother was one heck of a sahm.... baking and cooking on the aga,raising chickens/goats/turkeys, fostered children, sewed us clothes and toys, phew, I'm tired just thinking about it.

I must work on being a highly successful sahm and stop moaning at least I don't have to go out to work! (Yikes)

Really glad my sister is doing it for womankind (blah blah,blah). She is a no half measures girl. So obviously to be extremely good at anything you have to be really committed to that mindset.

karen999 · 05/02/2008 11:52

I am starting a new job in March. It will be the first time I have worked full-time in the last 8 years. Previously I have worked part-time to fit in with my daughter. I was married and whilst married to my ex decided that I wanted to do something for myself. I knew that as my daughter got older I would want a career, so I went to uni and studied part-time for 5 years. I did it at night and it became quite apparent quite quickly that my husband was resentful about the time and money which was being spent on me persuing my goal. Needless to say he was not my husband for much longer and we eventaully divorced. I then met a new partner and now have an 11month dd. My new partner has supported and encouraged me to continue and this is what I am doing. I always thought that I would never be able to work full-time, build a career and have children but I have worked very hard for the past five years and even though my dd2 is still very young, I know she will be well looked after (my mum is a CM) I actually dont feel guilty about going out now to get where I want to be. My DP and I both want to move house and have a good standard of living and this is what we are now both working towards. I have enjoyed being at home for the past year with dd2 but I personally need to get back to work and hopefully work towards my career. I realise it will be hard work trying to have it all but I believe that if you are committed and really want it, then you can. I realise not all people want the same things....but personally for me, I think I will be much happier as a person and hopefully this will have an impact on my children. Some of my friends have asked why I am returning to work as my DP earns a decent salary. And tbh I feel like I really need to be out working and earning my own money....

duchesse · 05/02/2008 12:04

One of my friends went to a GPDST (wuite high flying bunch of girls' schools), and had a talk in the sixth from a former pupil who had become very successful. (this was back in the late 80s in teh middle of the "have it all" mantra)

Her message was this: "Yes, you can have it all, just not all at the same time." Which I think is very empowering.

Hats off to you Xenia for managing to do it at the same time. However, for most averagely-paid parents, the cost of childcare alone precludes a quick return to work. Who can honestly put aside £25000 a year for a full time nanny, or even £12000 a year (per child) after tax for full time day nursery? Answer: Not very many people.

And because women physically give birth and breastfeed, they tend to become the more stay at home parent. Until someone has discovered a way of getting men pregnant and making them lactate, that is fairly unlikely to change.

What I would like to know from Xenia, is this: How did you manage to be available to your children if they were having a hard time at school and needed to talk about it, or if they were sick or injured (eg broken limbs) or needed trips to the hospital, or if they got into trouble at school or stopped doing homework and needed you to keep a closer eye on them or go into school to talk to their teachers, etc...

Because it is this sort of crap that makes it difficult to return to work in any meaningful way once your child is at school, or makes employed parents seem less reliable and marginalises them if they have to take time off work. These are just a few examples of what I would consider jobs that nobody but a parent can sort out (unless you have a very close nanny type person who has known them from birth and can be truly in loco parentis and more like a member of the family)

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karen999 · 05/02/2008 12:11

Duchesse - I realise you wanted Xenia to answer the question you set but I hope you dont mind if I give you my answer. I am going to work and it is a job where I will be earning a lot more money than I ever have. This is because I put my self through university. I am lucky as my mum is a CM so I have total peace of mind leaving my children with her. I can afford to pay her as I myself am now going to be paid a lot more that I ever have been. I think you can have it all.....you just have to be very organised and work together as a couple.

As for being able to talk to your children about problems etc, well I already do this a nights when my dd gets in....we chat when she is in the bath, watching TV etc....this is also what we have weekends for. Our weekends are really focused on the children and this is when we really spend time as a family.

LilianGish · 05/02/2008 12:12

"What we need to get away from is women who say nice things to each other all the time at the school gates etc behind very very fake smiles whilst thinking completely the opposite of what they say and avoiding confrontation at all costs. It doesn't serve them well in life or at work and it's a form of dishonesty - this pretending we agree with everyone thing. The less you see it on mumsnet the better." Spot on Xenia. One of the great things about MN is you can post for advice and hopefully get an honest reply without worrying that the person giving the advice is just saying what you want to hear for fear of giving offence. Xenia has an unusual perspective - she's almost certainly in a minority, but her experience and opinions based on that experience are as valid as anyone else. You don't have to agree with her, I'm sure you don't have to apologise to her and if you don't want to hear what she has to say switch off the computer. Vive la difference.

Rosylily · 05/02/2008 12:19

Well my high flying sister has a supportive husband and a supportive sister (me) who can go to school concerts/ have the children when they are sick if they can't get out of work commitments.
But I really think in family set ups there needs to be some one who is there and available, who has spare time. Because nowadays everyone's time is always filled to the brim. It's hectic!

Quattrocento · 05/02/2008 12:20

I'll answer this if I may - being a fellow career gal with small children.

How did you manage to be available to your children if they were having a hard time at school and needed to talk about it. DD WAS IN TEARS LAST NIGHT BECAUSE SOMEONE HAD CALLED HER A LESBIAN - WE SNUGGLED UP IN BED AND CHATTED FOR NEARLY TWO HOURS ABOUT SEXUALITY, UNKINDNESS AND HOW IT HELPS PEOPLE TO GROW UP AND DEVELOP A CARAPACE

or if they were sick or injured (eg broken limbs) MINE HAVEN'T BROKEN ANYTHING YET BUT IF THEY DO I WILL CANCELL ALL MEETINGS AND BE THERE. IN FACT WHEN DD HAD TO GO TO HOSPITAL FOR KIDNEY APPOINTMENTS I TOOK HER EVERY TIME or needed trips to the hospital, or if they got into trouble at school MINE HAVEN'T DONE THAT YET THOUGH I DID HAVE A BIT OF AN ALTERCATION ABOUT SWIMMING - EASY TO RESOLVE OVER THE PHONE ONCE YOU TRAIN THE TEACHERS TO RETURN CALLS or stopped doing homework and needed you to keep a closer eye on them or go into school to talk to their teachers, etc...WE HAVE AN AU-PAIR WHO HELPS WITH SCHOOL PICKUPS

YOU CAN MANAGE IT ALL. IT'S NOT EASY AND IT IS TIRING BUT YOU CAN DO IT.

duchesse · 05/02/2008 12:36

I actually have no fixed opinions on whether or not anybody else should go back to work or stay at home. I elected to stay at home when my children were small after a series of abortive attempts to find nannies with enough intelligence to read a story without stumbling over two-syllable words or telling them to shut up if they asked questions, and investigating local nurseries where they spent half the morning in front of the telly. I felt in the end that it was best if I stayed at home with them.

I do not regret that time with them at home at all, and will always look back on it fondly, but I will say that I have panicked on occasions about being completely marginalised in the workplace, about missing the boat career-wise, and bluntly about wasting my youth away bringing up babies when I could have been forging a career. I do not think the time was wasted for them, but if I'm honest, it hasn't been an intellectual success for me in many respects, and has (let's face it) been an economic disaster. I have had the moral and financial support from my husband to do a PGCE and an MA within the last ten years, and I went back to work when my youngest was just about 2.

One of my lasting memories though of that time is of returning home from a school one afternoon to find my MIL waiting on the doorstep with toddler daughter in her arms, handing her to me, and climbing into her car and screeching away without saying a word to me. I felt guilty every single moment I was out of the house while the children were so small, not knowing what I would find when I got home.

My husband had no real idea what I was doing during the day, tbh, and however theoretically supportive, he still expected to do exactly the same as he was doing before I returned to training. So for two years I worked 5am (getting up to prepare lessons etc) got one child to school, went to my full time teaching post, picked child up from school, went home, worked till 6:30, cooked and went to bed at 9pm. Tbh we were barely on speaking terms for this time, not because he expected me to do this and look after him like another child, but because he simply didn't consider what I was doing all day and made no allowances. Because my MIL was a fairy significant part of our childcare arrangements, I couldn't really ask for any more time from her, and couldn't actually afford to employ a nanny who would have cost more than I was earning.

My question to Xenia was more about the practicalities of managing all this using the often patchy combination of family, wraparound and ad hoc friendly childcare many women must use. If I could have afforded a nanny, I jolly well would have done. Captive childcare is not however the norm for most families, and nurseries will often not take a sick child. So how does one manage a child with a broken limb requiring weekly trips to the orthopaedic clinic, or stays in hospital, and still be credible in the workplace?

OP posts:
mrsruffallo · 05/02/2008 12:38

So if you don't like what a particular poster says turn off the computer? I'd rather have a debate and let my own opinions be known.
I think it is perfectly valid that posters get angry with Xenia's remarks. I have read lots of intelligent and heartfelt replies to her insults, hardly any of which are acknowledged.

Her view just sems so old fashioned to me. I worked hard until I had children. I had always known that once I had them I would stay at home if at all possible because that is what I wanted to do.
I find hiding behind the feminist cause by demanding all mothers should work quite clever but ultimately futile.
I believe the swing in mothers staying at home is more a movement against materialism and more about spending precious time with your children- no, you don't get paid, no,you don't get respect from a consumerist society or from bosses who expect you to sacrifice aeverything for your job. TBH I don't really pander after respect from these things anyway.
But I realised a long time ago that things have taken a wrong turn if you just live to make money and don't realise that there is joy and happiness and passion is priceless.

MrsMattie · 05/02/2008 12:42

Vive la difference. - Exactly. And this is exactly what Xenia fails to grasp. She would have us believe that women who do not delegate all childcare to a nanny and pursue a career 60 hours a week are 'sell outs' to the cause of feminism and, well, a bit thick, really.

I also think that getting away from saying nice things to each other all the time is all very well - but not if it means swinging drastically to the opposite way of doing things and making sweeping and often incredibly scathing judgements about (the majority of) other women (a la Xenia) NO. Bollox to that. I happen to think that supporting other women in their choices is important. You don't have to be a 'hun' to respect other women and not talk down to them. Anyone would think Xenia is the only successful, educated woman on MN [pah! emoticon]

MrsMattie · 05/02/2008 12:43

(Applauds mrsruffalo)

karen999 · 05/02/2008 12:46

Mrsruffallo, your last post was good. However, I think you can earn money and still realise and cherish the important things in life....

MrsMattie · 05/02/2008 12:49

Yes,you can@karen999 - but why on earth should Xenia or anybody else judge what should and shouldn't make others happy? Honestly - my mind boggles at this.

LilianGish · 05/02/2008 12:50

Yes sorry MrsR - or argue back. I just find it a bit tedious that any thread featuring Xenia almost invariably turns into a SAHM V WAHM debate in which case following my own advice I usually switch off (damn it I've broken my own rule here!)