I'm feeling sorry for myself and need a bit more of a beating for being so naive so hello aibu!
Before I start, I'm not desperate to get engaged, we have 2 beautiful kids and I've been married and divorced so it's not so important that I'll be popping the question myself. I can happily live with the relationship whatever happens.
That being said, from the moment I met my partner I knew he was the one to make me reconsider my "never getting married again" post divorce mantra. And apparently he felt the same telling me he was going to marry me one day. Anyway skip a couple of babies and a pandemic and we've had more in depth conversations about marriage and agreed that it's something we'd both like (no, this does not make us engaged already). He spoke to my dad and asked permission, even went so far as to hint that he would be buying the ring this month (sale discounts = the way to my heart). Today however he's decided that actually he won't be buying it now, he'd rather pay more but have time to save more to get something better which i find a bit confusing but there we go. I've told him before I'd be happy with a £100 or less ring as its the symbol but he's not apparently.
So tell me the truth, he's not actually going to do it is he? This is a "shits got real" backing out a bit situation isn't it 😳