To feel somewhat sad about turning 25 this year

[Pansiesandtulips]

Hi all

I am turning 25 this year and I feel somewhat sad about it. It’s not so much the age but more the fact I don’t feel I have accomplished much in my life. I’m not in a career that I enjoy and I’m still not sure what I want to do for a career. I’m single and unfortunately have terrible experiences in past relationships. I wasted my late teens in an abusive relationship and early twenties being treat like a door mat by every guy I met. I have never been in a happy, committed relationship and feel like it’s too late to find one.

I just feel like my life has no direction and at 25 I’m worried I’m past it. I still have terrible self esteem and self doubt. I still worry what other people think of me. I still overthink everything too.

I was 49 a couple of days ago 38 seems young!

When I was 25 I thought I was old.
When I was 30 I thought I was old.

It is because of the patriarchy. They convince us that we are old and worthless past the age of 21. They also make us think that if we are not in a relationship that we have failed.

Now I am 38, I look back and see that 30 was so young! I wish I hadn't wasted the time when I was 30, thinking I was old. I was so young.