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Traumatised by being smacked

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Babyparrotdog · 02/09/2021 17:58

Sounds dramatic to some maybe but am I the only one who feels they are genuinely traumatised from being ‘smacked’ as a child? I feel so much worse about it since having my own child.

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Feelingmardy · 03/09/2021 00:11

My parents were quite violent. Frequent slaps around the face, occasional spankings with hands or shoes, always on the bare bottom. Lots of threats of humiliation too (I'll do that in front of your friends) and lots of anger at normal reactions to being assaulted (stop crying or I'll give you something to cry about). My parents do not see this as abusive. I do not have a close relationship with my father. I do see these things as connected and I do think I was abused.

Feelingmardy · 03/09/2021 00:13

All smacks left marks BTW, so none of them were 'little slaps'. They were meant to inflict significant pain. I have never, ever hit my kids and they are very well behaved. Unlike me when I was a child, they also respect and (I hope) feel safe with me. I never asked for help with problems as a teenager as my parents had shown themselves to be dangerous people.

Recessed · 03/09/2021 00:21

It's the living in fear, the heightened anxiety knowing what's coming. The constant threat is what I most remember. That can't be good for a child. I would hate for my DC to live like that, a horrible, damaging environment to grow up in.

It all came flooding back once I had my DC so YANBU, you look at them so tiny and vulnerable and you think how could your parents have done it? My dad in my case. It wasn't often as far as I remember but it definitely had a long term impact. I went NC with him when I was expecting my second child, he's never met her. No regrets. It's quite empowering cutting abusive people out of your life, frees up that headspace.

ozymandiusking · 03/09/2021 00:21

I remember being hit by a teacher when I was about 9. She used a wooden ruler on the inside of my arm above my wrist about 5 times.
I've never forgotten it, and bloody hurt.
Mrs Stansfield, she's dead now.

IceLace100 · 03/09/2021 00:26

My parent smacked my hand very gently. I do remember it well actually as being upsetting.

I don't think that it traumatised me but I do t think I'd do it now. It was a different time.

Nat6999 · 03/09/2021 01:39

I can only ever remember getting slapped twice in my whole childhood. My best friend's mum used to slap both her kids for the slightest thing & it wasn't just a single slap, I can remember the youngest getting slapped really hard & she could only have been maybe 2 or 3, then left to cry & fall asleep where she was. A boy who was in the same form as me was battered by a teacher at school for being cheeky, he was dragged in to the corridor & the teacher punched him in the stomach & then repeatedly punched in the head & face, nothing was done about it, now the teacher would have at least lost his job & probably have been charged with GBH.. while I don't agree with parents smacking children I do think that since corporal punishment was banned in school behaviour has got worse, now the worst thing pupils get is isolation or detention, corporal punishment was a deterrent to bad behaviour.

PumpkinKlNG · 03/09/2021 01:45

My mum use to smack us occasionally, doesn’t bother me at all!

GrandTheftWalrus · 03/09/2021 01:53

My mum used to batter me with either a stick or her hard soled slipper when I was a child.

My dad used to punch me etc. I remember lying infront of the washing machine while my dad kicked me.

I was terrified as a child if I was bad.

Now however they are the most loving grandparents ever and when I got to about 10/11 they never hit me again. And if I ever thought they would raise their hands to my children they would never see them again

GrandTheftWalrus · 03/09/2021 01:56

Also when I was about 8 I was slapped by a teacher in full view of the whole classroom. But nothing was ever said about it. It was the "norm" then apparently

KeepPortlandWeird · 03/09/2021 02:34

Userxx yeah my mother used to fly after me and hit me with anything to hand, lock me in the garden at night, slap me across the face, humiliate me verbally, and I would wet myself with fear. It was called ‘getting a good hiding’ in the 70s.

I also used to think in was normal until recently, when I learnt that actually no, not every kid growing up in the 70s was hit by their parents.

My mother came from an unusually large abusive family, more than 16 siblings. She confided in me that her father sexually abused both her and the youngest sibs (twins). Considering his wife was pregnant every year no surprise there. I don’t know if my mother is a barefaced liar, she has a knack for turning things around to suit her story, It wouldn’t surprise me if it were true, the drama in this family is heinous -sociopaths, child abusers, adultery, paedophiles, so, it’s probably true.

But as an adult she blamed her behaviour with me on what she called her hormonal imbalance. Her ‘redhead temper’ dad used to say almost with pride. To my knowledge she never hit my siblings (we are steps, I had a different dad). My brother used to stand in front of her sometimes to prevent her hitting me.

I’ve no idea why. I was a quiet almost mute child, never said boo to a goose. I was happy in myself, but suspicious of physical affection so shunned it. Maybe she couldn’t stand my silence around her, I’ll never know, and don’t want to.
She gives me the creeps. Something must have gone very wrong early on for someone to say that about their own mother I suppose.

Anyway, smacking to any degree reinforces a message that violence is a tool to control someone. If you smack your kid, ‘light pat on the back of the legs’ or slapping your teen across his chops, it’s an act of violence. As evidenced on threads like this, we remember for the rest of our lives what you did to us, no matter how much you deny or try to justify it.

LunaTheCat · 03/09/2021 02:40

@WhateverHappenedToFayWray

Yes, I was smacked as child and a teenager and I still think about it. The kind of smack I would get varied. Sometimes it was round the head and other times it was round the face.

My dad punched me in the face because I got drunk when I was 15 and it was so hard that my braces went through my top lip. When I mentioned it to my mum a few years ago she said it wasn't a punch it was a back hand, like that made it ok.

That is awful 💐
LunaTheCat · 03/09/2021 02:46

I was smacked. I hated it. Never hard enough to leave marks that lasted more than 5 minutes but I found it hurt and humiliating.
Once my mother banged my sisters and I ‘s heads together - that hurt like hell and I saw stars. My mother was emotionally needy and selfish about her needs. I never felt properly mothered - it has had a big effect on my, and my late sisters lives.

TravelDreamLife · 03/09/2021 02:51

I wouldn't say I'm traumatised, but I resent being smacked. I see it as lazy parenting & to exert anger, show power. I was never asked my side or had anything explained, just whack! I have never felt close to my parents or felt safe confiding in them or asking for advice. I felt completely alone with no direction & made some horrendous mistakes I wouldn't have if I'd had support. They had no other tools so I ran wild as teen. Having said that, my mother once said she didn't care what I did, but what would other people think of her as a parent?

My MIL harped on & on about how we should smack DS, who's ASD, for toilet issues & how DH & SIL towed the line because she was so strict & smacked, belt etc. I told her off, but REALLY wanted to point out SIL ran away at 16 & DH is unable to manage any disagreement because all he knows is self preservation by shutting down.

So I guess that clears up my position. My kids will never get smacked.

memberofthewedding · 03/09/2021 03:21

When I was a kid (1950s) it was a good day when if did not get a whalloping from my father. My sister was never touched. I grew up hating my father for his brutality and my mother for her weakness in allowing it.

caravanman · 03/09/2021 09:10

I grew up in the sixties and seventies. I was smacked at home, smacked at school and even smacked in (psychiatric) hospital by nurses. Most of the smacks are hardly remembered. Yet I remember the ones that resulted in too much force or violence being used, for example a male teacher smacking me so hard (in front of the class) for being involved in a fight, that I crashed into a fireguard (I was 10). I think he used more force with me because I was the only girl involved in the fight. I also remember those which breached boundaries of trust and care, e.g, a nurse slapping me across the face because I had left my room without permission in hospital.

DrSbaitso · 03/09/2021 09:17

It is shit parenting, no question.

Maybe, maybe, the rest of your parenting is good enough that it mitigates the damage and potential damage (although there'll be no way to offset your message that pain and humiliation by the power holder are valid forms of communication, and that you don't need to learn to control or better yourself), but it's still an independently bad parenting technique that has been thoroughly discredited, and you will make yourself a better parent if you stop doing it.

Yes, screaming and swearing at your kids is also terrible and damaging. But nobody denies that, or says it's ok because they do it the right way.

Just stop hitting your kids. If you expect them to grow up resolving things by other methods, lead by example like the parent you are supposed to be.

3scape · 03/09/2021 09:20

I remember being beaten. Being scared to drop things so I was nervous doing jobs around the house. It was the uncertainty obviously there's be smacks for doing something like not finishing a meal (A big deal in the 70s) but as I grew up it was harder to.predict, like clothes I guess had become too tight or too short so were slutty to my parents eyes but I didn't know what that really was at first, constantly new hoops of behaviour. Like a lot of people I was smacked if I wet the bed but also for get to.g out of bed to use the toilet! People who need to smack people are very damaged themselves so of course there's no reason and it leaves you in a state of confusion and fear.

3scape · 03/09/2021 09:26

I remember my mum going over to a wooden spoon as one time she smacked my brother her ring caught on something so.her hand got bruised. She didn't have the intelligence to wonder what it was doing to us. We were supposed to have been glad she'd never used it before I think. I also remember every moment of being hit with my dad's belt once. Now I had done something fairly bad then. But I acted like a shit because I'd long since stopped having any respect or care for my parents at all. That's what smacking does. It just builds a wall of distrust and hate.

TracyLords · 03/09/2021 09:31

@Feelingmardy I found the fact that someone pulled your pants down the worst of it all. I don’t remember it being that sore, it was more the humiliation and lack of bodily control. And I was terrified in case it happened in front of anyone

babybythesea · 03/09/2021 09:34

No. But smacking was extremely rare in our house.
I can remember being smacked twice and both times I knew I was pushing every button I could - being deliberately as naughty as I dared. The smacks didn’t come out of nowhere and both times I remember being more shocked that they’d done it, than hurt. And also slightly shocked by how rude I’d been to push them to that level. I was under 10 both times. I also know that after that “Do you want a smack?” was enough to stop me in my tracks and let me know I was stepping over the line!

Powerof4 · 03/09/2021 09:42

My dad told me recently that when I was on the nappy table and rolling away from him, he decided he needed to show me who was boss by slapping me. I don’t remember that incident of course, but it gave me chills now I have my own. I’m amazed he still feels no remorse.

Liverbird77 · 03/09/2021 09:48

I so wish all of these people could be prosecuted. One of my biggest regrets is not calling the police on my own father.
There's just no excuse for any of it, whatever anyone supposedly did to "deserve it".

lunar1 · 03/09/2021 09:49

I was hit as a child, it's definitely had a long-standing effect. I don't like to be touched at all unless it's my husband or children. Covid stopping people hugging as a greeting was a blessing.

I flinch if someone touches me when I haven't braced myself for it. When my children were toddlers I had intrusive thoughts about hitting them-I had therapy to get through it. I have never so much as tapped them on the hand, but I was terrified of hurting them.

DrSbaitso · 03/09/2021 09:51

@Powerof4

My dad told me recently that when I was on the nappy table and rolling away from him, he decided he needed to show me who was boss by slapping me. I don’t remember that incident of course, but it gave me chills now I have my own. I’m amazed he still feels no remorse.
As sinister as that is, it's the exact logic of smacking. If you can reason with a child or implement a natural consequence to explain why they shouldn't do what they've done, then hitting them to make the point isn't necessary. If you can't communicate why it shouldn't be done, smacking is pointless; they either understand it or they don't, but hitting them doesn't explain the situation. The most they can learn is "because otherwise I'll hit you" and often not even that. And it's almost always just to alleviate the parents' frustration and to "show who's boss" anyway.

A great many times it's the parent's fault anyway. Running into the road comes up a lot in this discussion (hitters are shit at road safety). If a child is too young not to know better than to run into the road, or to roll off a changing table, then it's on the parents to keep control, not hit the child if they fail to do so.

So it makes just as much sense to hit a baby on the changing table for rolling away, which your father should have been preventing anyway.

Planty13 · 03/09/2021 10:05

I don’t think anyone can tell you that you are being unreasonable to feel how you feel.

I was smacked as a child and really don’t care, I was a right sod at times and I have no bad feelings about it but everyone is different

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