Qualified as a lawyer in 2010 and loved it. Then DCs came along, went part-time and have tried three different roles now but have developed (since pregnancy and insane workload/stress levels at time) horrific anxiety about work. I worry about the smallest thing that I may have done wrong. Yesterday spent afternoon crying after anxiety attack as was worried told a client the wrong thing. Colleague said it was very minor and probably not even wrong. I rationally know this but the anxiety continues. I am exhausted.
DH has a good job but wants to go out on his own early next year which will mean some uncertainty. He sees me in the moments I love law and feels I would be throwing it all away. He wants me to carry on trying. I am trying counselling etc. I just don't think it will change the fundamental issue that is law and that mistakes mean a lot.
AIBU for quitting even though we would take a hit financially and just doing an admin role/low stress role. I don't earn mega bucks but it isn't bad for four days a week. Am I being completely selfish to my DCs (4 and 7). It would mean the end of some of the nice things we do at least in short term. Should I just tough it out? Please be kind as poss so don't end up crying again.