For once. Just once. I fantasy about it because that's all it will ever be for me, how sad.
My whole life all I've ever had is bad sex. Partners have either been selfish, or useless. I've never finished. I've always been the one to "put on a show" and make sure their needs were met.
My partner never has the initiative to instigate sex, and there is never any romance/build up there. I'm desperate. I've communicated this to him so many times, I've made it clear what I want of him. I'm still waiting for him to take charge .... and we have yet have sex. He will happily try to get a quickie in during the middle of the night but wont bother to put any effort in. It's all so depressing. I'm not even in my mid twenties!
Aibu to just want to have a one night affair (not literally) Surely I deserve better than this awful sex life and negative experiences