Anyone else still feeling flat?

[Summercocktailsinthesnow]

I will say I am grateful to still be here, and I have not lost anyone very close to me to covid. Believe me I am grateful for those things. I am not depressed in the slightest either, however I am finding it increasingly hard to listen to all the conversations about hugging and enjoying life again on the radio and every news channel, and I am just not feeling it. At all. Things don't feel very different to me.

I have shivered through meals and drinks with friends, braved the weather for BBQs, I have even had my hair done! I imagined by now to be feeling much better than I am. But I don't feel better. I am so flat, and find things are not much better than before. The things I most want to do seem still a million miles away.

I am desperate for a holiday, we have worked all the way through, but how easy it that going to be this summer? Chances look exceptionally low. I want to dance at a festival, no chance. Or go to something with live music, anything.
I want to enjoy shopping without feeling muzzled, and I really feel what we have now is not really a whole life at all, it is like a half life. It is nothing like the life I left behind. I have no sense of when it will end. The scientist on the BBC today said she wasn't sure the next reopening will even happen....the moment when some kind of normal happens on the 21st of June.

I can't summon the energy to look forward to anything, because we have no idea if it will happen. I feel like I am being lied to, look at all you can do is the strap line, the reality is freezing cold, wind swept evenings eating cold over priced food, and everything is so limited in experience and in interaction, like trying to enjoy a facial with someone covered in PPE none of this is actually fun anymore!

I am optimist, by nature, and of course I have already counted my blessings for the things we can do, but really I just want my old life back so so so badly. Does anyone else feel like this?

Going to the pub or a restaurant now is akin to being at a crime scene aftermath. Masks, arrows, stuff all labelled up, being careful where you stand etc.

I'm looking at the Royal Opera House website because my great aunt wanted to know what was happening there re Test and Trace

I just thought, they have your booking details so that woukd be it.

But she is right. It says to register with T&T and gives a link which I don't actually understand. So I'm guessing she can't just call to book a ticket and go.

I am so pleased I'm not alone in feeling like this, although am sorry so many others do as it's horrible. I am so tired today I can barely keep my eyes open. I just want to go to bed and sleep and not wake up, I don't know if I can do this anymore, actually feel like ending it but I can't because of daughter. Dp said he resents me and it's hard to love someone when they are so depressed and have pretty much given up

@strugglingwithlife I had to remind myself this morning to stop feeling sad that I’m awake again and have another day to get through

OverByYer I completely understand that

@strugglingwithlife

I am so pleased I'm not alone in feeling like this, although am sorry so many others do as it's horrible. I am so tired today I can barely keep my eyes open. I just want to go to bed and sleep and not wake up, I don't know if I can do this anymore, actually feel like ending it but I can't because of daughter. Dp said he resents me and it's hard to love someone when they are so depressed and have pretty much given up

I am so sorry to hear about what your Dp said. I understand that feeling of wanting to end it and the thing that kept me going was my children. Depression can also make you exhausted. If you feel that bad please see your gp. Please do not give up

notawittyname1954 thank you

Feeling so anxious about everything
No sense of normality at all

I know it's been said already, but this bloody weather is not helping!

I'm feeling fearful and exhausted today for no reason at all, other then I'm fed up (and cold). I actually had a good day yesterday, had a sudden spurt of energy and motivation - I almost felt normal and like my old sekf... back to running on empty today with zero motivation today. It's like a constant roller-coaster.

Awful day today. Feel so depressed. The weather is just appalling and has been for weeks. Also unemployed and feel at a loss to know what to do with myself which then makes me feel even worse.

Sorry to hear others in the same boat still

I think partly .i thought it would feel like last summer but it seems worse

I may be misremembering because I mostly hung out at friends' houses

But last summer, were they asking you to scan codes for shops? I don't do it but don't recall being asked

Also, were you asked to fill in the separate forms for T&T as well as giving details?

I realise this might be about venues taking a belt and braces approach. Friend is going to a curry house tonight so she's going to report back.

I hear Denise on Loose Women said today that the technology was becoming too much. I feel like that. I said on another thread about being asked to Whataspp photo ID. I don't feel comfortable with that at all but it feels like we will be forced into it.

I was thinking that about technology earlier. Must be really hard for the elderly to keep up as everything seems to be an app

@OverByYer

I was thinking that about technology earlier. Must be really hard for the elderly to keep up as everything seems to be an app

Hence I thoight I'd be able to help great aunt but even with fairly up to date tech, I am baffled.

I get a lot of elderly folk asking me where they can park near the high street without an app and now the one place you can do that is changing to app

Does no one else run out of battery? Apps are draining and they don't seem much good in terms of convenience.

Oh god I hate parking apps.

@OverByYer

Oh god I hate parking apps.

Not just me then I found the "pay by automated phone line systems" easier

Google maps drains battery like I've been talking on the phone an hour!

@Cam2020

I know it's been said already, but this bloody weather is not helping!

I'm feeling fearful and exhausted today for no reason at all, other then I'm fed up (and cold). I actually had a good day yesterday, had a sudden spurt of energy and motivation - I almost felt normal and like my old sekf... back to running on empty today with zero motivation today. It's like a constant roller-coaster.

I could have written this. Couldn’t work today, went back to bed. Exhausted, down, fed up and brain unable to work. Yesterday I was full of beans and so happy. So strange.

@5usaits, the constant up and down is exhausting in itself!

Today is a another day, fingers crossed its a better one

Hoping to eat out with some family this evening. I think I'm going to try to make the most of things for now.

@Summercocktailsinthesnow

massive yes that is it, I was feeling better in the lockdown in mid winter preparing for now. But now has arrived, it is nothing like what I thought it would be. I was ordering new dresses, booking trips and getting excited about the summer. But now reality is here, it is raining, not summer dress weather and we are all too tired to work up the energy to enjoy anything.

Maybe if the weather improves and we take some time off.....she says clutching at straws.

I am happyfor you non and hope you enjoy your plans.

I think looking forward to the summer was vital for wellbeing during a tough winter. It kept you going.

Now though I feel the same. What's the point?

The weather is awful. I hate February at the best of times and it's been 4 months of what feels like February now. I keep being amazed at how light the evenings are and then remembering it's about a month until the summer solstice.

How is everyone? Are we feeling a little better or the weather seems to be wild and stormy, so probably not having drinks in the garden this evening?!! At least we can now sit inside, have the loosening restrictions helped at all?

I’m feeling exhausted to be honest, what I actually need is a year in Spain pre-pandemic...I saw a video of two lads in Spain and they looked absolutely thrilled just to be walking on the sand and swimming in warm sea...I thought that would actually sort me out more than anything...
It’s just the same shitty weather every day here and even though we can do a lot more I don’t want to sit inside Nando’s...I want a bloody summer holiday, though I wouldn’t go right now because it all feels too risky...
I just want to go back to before this shitstorm started...

Its exhausting have gone through this incredibly stressful 14 months and then being expected to 'get back to normal' when we don't know when normal is even returning, but more than anything we all need some kind of massive holiday to get over the pandemic. I think a lot of it, especially for women, is pure exhaustion, mental emotional and physical

I agree women/mothers particularly have really had a rough ride during this pandemic, and many are depleted. Reserves gone, and it is not obvious when or how they recharge and bounce back.

I agree better weather would definitely help. Like other posters I thought by now the sun would be out , would be socialising outside. I’m off to Cornwall for a week tomorrow and trying to be positive about it but just feels more of the same. Everything requires so much more mental energy