They are 18 and 15 and they are both so entitled, lazy and messy. The eldest is back at school today finally but last night when I asked her to be quiet at quarter to 12, she got cross with me for asking that and got louder and started stomping about loudly. It sounded like she was throwing books at the wall and the house was shaking under her stomping feet.
She also left the plug in heater on all night and when I commented on that this morning she bit the face off me! Seriously. I can say nothing to her, she is so sensitive that I cannot even ask her to be quiet or to be considerate or to not leave a heater on all night. My son asked me to wake him up at 0945 and I went in to his room at 0900, 0915 and 0950 and yet he claims to have no memory of this and has just shouted angrily at me for not waking him up. I said I did wake him up and he argued with me, quite angrily 
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I had roasted veg in the oven and he took them out to put in a pizza.
I'm on a rare week off and I'm just feeling so sad that both my children are such brats. I have tried to stop them growing in to such entitled selfish brats but they have to be paid to do any housework. Not only are they awful to me, but they're awful to each other as well. They are lazy, they leave such a mess everywhere, they blame me for everything, they will not tolerate being asked to be more considerate. That sums it up. If I say do not make such a mess. They will get angry with ME! As if I have no right to ask them to be tidier. I'm a single parent and they're both bigger than me and I have a bit of fear of my son in particular.
I just googled a nearby hotel and it seems to be open. I could go and stay for a couple of days. Or should I wait til there's no food in the house? The house if full of food right now. My life is just constant abuse from all quarters and I cannot get away from it. My mother is giving me the silent treatment. Again. That is her usual modus operandi. My father is my mother's food soldier. My brother is pressuring me to overlook her bad behavior to me and just apologise to her but I cannot this time. Work is very stressful and I'm off this week (I need the rest but I'd rather be at work).
I don't know what to do. Their father and my parents put money in to their accounts. They always say ''i don't care'' if I say I won't give them money. I wish they would go and live with my x but fat chance. He doesn't want them ft. He wants them once in a blue moon.
I've no car so it's not like I can threaten to never drive them anywhere. I can't afford a car (but we live in a big town near various bus routes and near a station).
I used to have a bf before covid. We sometimes still ring each other but my daughter will mock me and tell me to get off the phone the moment I talk to him.
I am so so so sick of them. my own children. I'm supposed to love them and I don't know what I feel right now.
Would going to a hotel for a few nights help diffuse the situation? I feel like I want to.
I'm sure I'll be told it's all my own fault and maybe it is but I tried to shape them in to decent people. And in front of other people they are like ''yes mrs paterson no mrs paterson'' so on ONE level they absorbed it and know how they ought to behave, but they are not respectful to me.