To just not have the emotional energy to do anything?

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I just don’t want to do anything. I’ve spent the weekend mooching around the house, but keep gravitating back to the bed. The kids and DH occasionally ask me to join in something or come to tell me something, and I join in or listen but then go back to lying on the bed. We went for a walk yesterday, which was OK, but then when we came back I just didn’t really do anything. I keep thinking of things I feel I should want to do, but I don’t want to.

I can’t even get together the mental energy to read. A lot of the time I’m just staring at the ceiling.

I’m basically just waiting for, but definitely not looking forward to, starting work again on Monday, closing the door to my study for 10-14 hrs of back to back zoom calls. All week will be the same, and I’ll count down the days to the weekend, but then at the weekend I will just wait for Monday again.

Same here. Couldn’t even force myself to go for a walk at the weekend.

Feel the same. Yesterday was particularly bad and I began to feel like I was actually depressed. My teen has struggled so much with lockdown- we have to cajole her to do anything and she's year 11 so potentially needs "evidence" for her GCSE grades. Yesterday she went back to bed after "breakfast" (which she had around midday) and I couldn't blame her. I felt the same myself.

I do keep up with exercise- walk or run most days- but have to force myself to put on washing, cook or clean.

I work 4 days, some from home, and that does cheer me up but I wouldn't say I look forward to it either.

I had a zoom call with my 3 oldest friends on Friday but it wasn't that much fun. I wasn't even looking forward to it. I think about all the things I would normally do, and wonder whether I really enjoyed them or just used them to pass the time.

As for holidays - some friends have booked these but I can't face it. We went away last year, it rained most of the time and the kids just sat on their screens same as at home.

I did have a long walk with someone one sunny day a few weeks ago and enjoyed that- so have some belief things can get better!

Feeling very similar here. Just flat. Like even when everything is open again and back to 'normal', I'm not going to want to participate in any of that, because I just don't see the point.

I feel guilty because me and OH have jobs and a house and our health and we've not lost anyone to this wretched disease. So it feels like we have no reason to feel so flat.

I think one of the problems is that apathy is a vicious cycle - the less we do, the less we feel like doing. I know if I force myself to do, say, a yoga practice on YouTube, then I do feel better, however momentarily. It's the moments of feeling something which we need to seek out I think. Yesterday I went for a walk with a friend and (outing myself here although I know she never reads mn!) instead of turning around when we hit a flooded bit, I ran through with my walking shoes on yes it was cold and wet - but it made me feel alive! *

*I don't recommend doing this for long btw as I gave my toes frostnip!!

Who knew that living through a pandemic would be so much less gripping disaster movie and so much more watching paint dry?

I will sum up this lockdown as an interminable period of bone aching tedium.

Same Here. For once I have time to do stuff I have wanted to do for months and here I am, sitting on bed the whole day not even looking forward to the new job I am starting next month.

A piece about colour psychology on radio 4 just now - maybe we all need to paint our homes yellow!