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AIBU to wish alcoholic dh was dead

128 replies

rOsie80 · 30/01/2021 17:57

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OP posts:
Andante57 · 30/01/2021 20:04

He was the life and soul of the party to those who didn't live with him. To those who did, he was spiteful and domineering

I completely understand op.
As pps have said, please get in touch with al Anon.

Thisisworsethananticpated · 30/01/2021 20:15

Not unreasonable Flowers
But to feel this is a
Major red flags for your sanity and well-being , which you know I’m sure

MrsCalypsoGrant · 30/01/2021 20:23

My ex died of her alcoholism OP. I understand how you feel.

When I first phoned Al-Anon I said I was worried that my partner would drink herself to death. I remember the woman on the other end of the phone said: "That's what she wants." I couldn't take it in at the time but since her inevitable death I really get it.

Don't stay there waiting (or hoping) for events to take their natural course. As others have said, get out now. Make a good life for yourself (and any children you have.) Leave him to make his own choices.

@Shannith I am impressed by your post. I applaud your honesty and wish you every success for your future.

alltoomuchrightnow · 30/01/2021 20:57

I don't think I'd be here now if it wasnt for Al Anon. Allowed me to rant and cry and scream without being judged when I'd lost everything and was broken (had to leave the alci with the clothes on my back...lost career, home everything)

Batfurger · 30/01/2021 20:59

My alcoholic mother died very recently and everyone's life is better. YANBU.

LividLoving · 30/01/2021 21:04

I get it.

With the help of Al-Anon I realised I had to leave.

He died a few years later aged just 39.

I’m still fucking livid with him.

UniversalAunt · 30/01/2021 21:12

Flowers to OP & the many posters who have shared their experiences.
It’s a painful realisation that alcoholism & choosing to drink continuously is a slow suicide, & that getting away from the alcoholic is the best move.

Zzzexhaustedzzz · 30/01/2021 21:17

I feel your pain OP as that is exactly what I said about my ex, father of my children at an Al Anon meeting. I found it so helpful to be honest and not judged. It really helped me. I was hesitant to go because of the religion factor, but it’s only a prayer or something at the end. Its certainly not in your face or brought into the discussion. Contact them ASAP.
The relatives and family of addicts are so often the people who suffer most and feel desperate.
IF YOU HAVEN'T LEFT PLEASE DO. It won’t change until he wants to change. There is support out there.
My ex is infact still alive, pulled himself together after nearly dying and causing a lot of pain to all his family and a new partner. He doesn’t touch a drop now.
Booze is one of our society’s biggest problems. Marketed as harmless fun. A cheeky glass of wine etc. A sign of a greater sickness in our culture in my opinion. Speaking as someone who uses it moderately to relax most nights and is currently trying to cut it down to 2/7 nights a week.
Look after yourself.

Charley50 · 30/01/2021 21:22

I used to feel the same about my dad.

RootyT00t · 30/01/2021 21:24

I think il hide this thread. Very disturbing reading.

BrutusMcDogface · 30/01/2021 21:40

@Christmasfairy2020

Does your husband drive?

terraclutter · 30/01/2021 21:40

I just recently lost my Mum to alcoholism. She literally drank herself to death. It's left me heartbroken although I've been grieving my Mum for a long time before she died.
It's left me with really sad and complex feelings. It was exhausting while she was alive and now it's sad that she's gone.
There is no winners when alcoholism is involved.

Batfurger · 30/01/2021 21:41

@RootyT00t I don't think MN is the place for you, based on your recent posting history.

terraclutter · 30/01/2021 21:42

@RootyT00t why is it disturbing?
The OP is having a hard time living with an alcoholic and people who have a shared experience are trying to help. But, yeah just hide the thread.

RootyT00t · 30/01/2021 21:51

[quote Batfurger]@RootyT00t I don't think MN is the place for you, based on your recent posting history.[/quote]
Oh do you not? Il leave then , since you think that.

Hmm
RootyT00t · 30/01/2021 21:51

[quote terraclutter]@RootyT00t why is it disturbing?
The OP is having a hard time living with an alcoholic and people who have a shared experience are trying to help. But, yeah just hide the thread. [/quote]
Will do.

friendlyflicka · 30/01/2021 21:52

I tried the Al-Anon after I left my first husband. But I found it very problematic to hear people excusing his behaviour as an illness and something out of his control. He was in prison for attempted murder of me, and I was trying to make sense of the world. Their world view really didn't work for me at the time.

Bridgespot · 30/01/2021 21:52

YANBU. All I can ask is this: can we, as a society, begin to recognise that alcohol is a poison - a poison that, were it to erupt on the scene today, would be banned as quickly, if not more quickly, than other drugs. Can we recognise that people who have an alcohol addiction are people whose brains are more susceptible to the poison, but that we all go through the same chemical release/stimulant/depressant cycles as everyone else? That while people with alcohol use disorder have a serious problem, that problem is waiting for anyone who uses alcohol? It's horrible to deal with anyone battling the alcohol demons, and yes, it is not your problem and you need to preserve yourself from it. But while distancing, please recognize that maybe alcohol is to blame, more than him, and that use of alcohol, however destructive, answers a short-term need. For whatever reason, he''s numbing something. Not your problem, not for you to resolve. He has to.I guess all I'm saying is that I really don't think people who abuse alcohol do so to deliberately ruin other lives. They do so to escape their own. It's very selfish but it is what it is, and while you are leaving him (which you should) you might want to (It's not your responsibility!) point him to things that might help him come to terms with himself.

GeidiPrimes · 30/01/2021 21:57

I understand OP, and I've been there myself. Not as straightforward as throwing him out because he'd threatened to burn my house down if I did. By a stroke of luck he was sent to prison and I can tell you, the relief was overwhelming.

Would you speak to Womens Aid?

Arrierttyclock · 30/01/2021 22:15

YANBU. I think the same about my father

friendlyflicka · 30/01/2021 22:22

@GeidiPrimes I felt the same when my first husband was sentenced to a substantial amount of time and I could escape

YouBringLightInToADarkPlace · 30/01/2021 22:38

Has she gone?

tracyon · 30/01/2021 22:38

YANBU. Wish he’d just crack on with it.

noblegreenk · 30/01/2021 22:44

My dad had a serious drink problem when I was growing up. My Mum and I used to wish he'd die all the time because he'd get so verbally nasty when he was pissed. He made our lives so miserable. Luckily he had some health scares and although he still drinks a bit he never gets drunk to the point of nastiness anymore.

BatshitCrazyWoman · 31/01/2021 08:39

@RefuseTheLies

I've lived with an alcoholic. I get it.

Flowers

Me too, I get it. I divorced. Best thing I ever did.
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