I’m really disgusted with myself

[Anon20201]

I tried to start a diet today but been stuffing my face. I just feel like such a loser. I can’t even stick to a diet for one day what is wrong with me? I really hate myself

Dieting is SO hard. I’m not a comfort or boredom eater, I only eat when I’m hungry, my problem is portion size. I think nothing of eating 3 burgers because I’m still starving after one or two.

I stepped on the scales today for the first time in ages and I’m 88.3kg 😭

I have no clue how to lose it. I also have a permanent knee injury which rules out a lot of exercise (I can’t run or jog, or even walk fast).

You’re not a loser.

It’s not the diet or the plan it’s the mindset. I was in your position. I’ve lost 5 stone -1/3 of my weight.

Instead of I’m cheating/I’m behaving or I’m a failure or I’m a success I changed it. I can eat anything I want but I know what the long term result will be. So at the moment I open a cupboard/packet/fridge/freezer I think about it. Right at this moment do I want this enough for the crap long term consequence or not.

Sometime I do want it that much but I can make some other small changes to mitigate it over a week or so.

Bodies are all about survival, it’s set up to maintain weight or try to regain to previous highest weight. I found it easier to lose a chunk of weight then maintain for a few weeks to help with the bodily demands of we are going to die eat more you are starving.

I’ve done no exercise btw. That’s the next goal.

I think we really need to focus on changing our language: disgusting, fat mess, eating like a pig, stuffing my face, failure, greedy

this is all self loathing, absorbed from our fat phobic society, stop it, don't talk to and about yourself like that

diets don't work, it is not your fault! do have a look at Dr Fung as others have suggested

Good luck for today op. I would second what others have said on here. Eat your first meal as late as possible. I wait until 1-2pm and have found it has got easier over time to do this. Once I eat something I am then hungrier for the rest of the day. I appreciate with young kids this may be harder for you as you will still need to be around food earlier in the day but you may find you are not as hungry for half the day. Like I said earlier, doing a combination of this and low carbing has totally stopped my pre menstrual cravings. I always knew when I was due on as I would be ravenous for a week or so before whereas now this just doesn't happen.

Also if you can, do a bit of exercise a day. I don't know how old your children are but could you all do some PE with Joe workouts? I started with these and have moved onto his adult hiit sessions. They are only around 25 - 35 mins usually so not too long and this makes them feel more doable.

And don't deprive yourself of things as his will lead to failure. I still have a beer or two at the weekends. I allow myself 1 chocolate a night but have bought myself posh chocolates so one of these is lovely and rich and I feel like I have had a proper treat.

And if you don't succeed one day. Carry on the rest of the week. If one of your children failed say a spelling test, you would tell them that if they read their spellings and practice more, they will do better next time. You wouldn't tell them to leave school as they have failed. It's the same with losing weight.

Oh and take some before photos so you have something measurable to compare yourself too. You got this!!

Thanks everyone! I was good today and yes you’re right no more self loathing language. I’m going to look at dr. Fung today when kids are sleeping. Thank you all it’s really helped. @Witchofzog I’ve started excercise game I’m doing 25 mins in bike at the moment then will increase this every week. I’m trying to walk too but getting the kids out is hard! They just want to keep running off.

@Nottherealslimshady

sugar content is massively important, a quick release of sugar will encourage your body to store fat. A slow release of mixed calories will not

Only if you are consuming excess calories. The human body cannot produce fat out of not enough calories, WHATEVER the calories are made of. Otherwise we'd be able to solve famine without feeding people!

The reason that not all calories are the same is that some make you more likely to overeat, and some don't. But you still have to eat too many to gain fat. Or muscle.

I was good today

What are you 6 years old?

Ditch this nonsense or it will destroy you.

Anon Will the kids play with you? Running about with kids and a football or chasing a frizbee or batting a ball about (mostly missing and doing lots of squats picking the damn thing up!) are brilliant ways to burn some weight off. Wear the kids out too. Lots of fresh air. Everybody wins...

Well done OP! It will get easier :)

@Anon20201 I'm glad you've had a better day, I've done well too although I'm craving something sweet so I'm just going to go for a walk with the kids to distract myself.

@randomer... that’s true. Each time I try to lose weight, my heart sinks. My relationship with food is totally fucked.

I went to ballet school as a boarder, aged 10. Food was in very very shirt supply. It was literally “currency”. We were weighed and measured each week and the thinner you got, it was like a badge of pride. I was either too fat (at 5ft 5 and 7 and a half stone) or too thin...”go home and put some weight on” at 6st 10. When I stopped dancing, in my early 20’s my weight ballooned (8 and a half stone) 😂

Now, I’m nearly 60. My bones are knackered. I was having steroid injections into my feet and hips aged 12. I think when I gave up ballet, I was just tired out. Done with it. And my relationship with food is fear of the impending famine I had each time I returned to boarding school. I was hospitalised several times growing up for anorexia. And yet somewhere, I had to find the strength to go back to school and work.

I should say, the school today, has dieticians and more therapy than you can shake a stick at 😊. Things have improved massively.

Often, it’s not really about the food.

@Anon20201 how's today going? I'm so hungry! But I'm sticking with it, I'm painting the woodwork downstairs to stop me snacking!

@catchingzzzeds it’s going well thank you. I’m glad it’s going well for you too. Painting to stop snacking sounds good! I even managed to go on my excercise bike!

@Anon20201 go you! Just being more in control is making me feel better about myself. Think I'll be going to bed early, the evenings are boring when I can't drink wine and munch crisps!

the evenings are boring when I can't drink wine and munch crisps!
That's when OpenLearn comes in...
And cucumber slices with quark sriracha dip
I still "snack", but on things like watermelon, the above, ryvita thins with pastrami, hardboiled egg whites. At 3PM and then maybe about 9pm. I go sleep about 1 so I would be utterly famished since dinner is about 6:30. But obviously snacks are now something super low in cals (but tasty as fuck) so I can have proper main meals.