To be “peopled out”

[Sexnotgender]

Having a down day and I think I’ve realised it’s because there’s someone here ALL THE BLOODY TIME.

I love my family but dear lord what I wouldn’t give for a few hours solitude.

I go out running to have a good theraputic sing, but it's not relaxing in my home.

Oh! This is me! I need time alone to recharge and I'm used to having at least one day a week in the house by myself on my day off from work when the kids are at school. I'm still working three days a week but on the days I'm home, instead of getting time to get my head in order I'm having to listen to DD (6) needing constant attention and input or trying to help DS (8) with school stuff or listening to DH who is a raging extrovert and struggling with working from home and not having human input. My fibromyalgia is flaring and I'm constantly overstimulated and buzzy and it feels like my brain is melting.

I'm going to the supermarket today. It will be a combination of wonderful peace from "mummy, mummy, mum..." and also hideous over stimulation due to the noise and people.

My dh went back to work this week and tho we get on very well, and have done through lock down, it's nice to be able to listen to what I want on the radio (the Jeremy Vine show being a particular flash point!) I went out for a walk on my own every day this week and could walk at my normal pace, i.e. fast! I went shopping on my own yesterday, it was lovely.
We've got a few years to go before retirement but I'll definitely be encouraging both of us to get a volunteering job somewhere separately!