Lockdown is making me hate life

[Minorchord]

I hate lockdown. I live alone and hate not being able to see anyone. I hate this whole culture of meet up over zoom and fucking dance routines and people going on about their gardens. I have depression anyway which I've had treatment for which doesn't work. I hate this incompetent government and this new NHS Worship cult. I used to like life when I wasn't depressed now I hate every second of it. I don't know what the point of getting up is. But of course all people want to talk about is the illness above all others and how important it is to lockdown until 2023. I've lost years of my life to mental ill health. I was making some progress and now this. I hate MN and how everyone just wants to leap on anyone hating the lockdown and say it's for your own good and don't even think about having a life. I hate those fucking patronising government adverts "It cam be hard.." I am sick to death of the words social distancing. If I knew what happened after I'd end my life now.

I feel the exact same OP

I feel you op it's shit

Deffo think you need a news / social media break

There's some good places on here though for example the "dementors" threads and the positive mental health ones

OP I entirely agree with you. Those people saying that this is not house arrest, I think you’re not following the rules. Other than getting a breath of air, you’re not meant to be leaving the house unless for essential items (eg food once a week) If it doesn’t feel a bit like house arrest/imprisonment, you personally are not in lockdown. Up to you, but don’t have a go at people who are doing it right and finding it bloody hard.

I totally get you OP. I hate it too.

I agree with this 💯:

We can't go on like this. I think some very bitter/jealous people are relishing this lockdown because it means that they might in fact benefit from this because they are in a secure job, whereas others who they envied in the past, might stand to lose their jobs and financial security

There is a very nasty contingent who seem to be enjoying the fact others finding it hard, it’s on MN a lot and it’s vile. I’m sorry you’re having such a hard time- I’m hoping lockdown will ease very soon. But you aren’t alone- we get you and we feel the same.

Yes, I don’t understand those that think it’s not like house arrest - I am stuck in a small flat with a child all by myself we go out once a week for shopping and try to get out for a walk but that’s it. My whole support system gone, stuck in just the pair of us no garden to sit in. Drug dealers and addicts wandering free round my area together while my child can’t see her friends that live in the flat below and I work full time. It’s miserable. Lucky I have a job, that’s about it. So it is hard and it is horrible and I’m tired of those saying otherwise.

I guess what strikes me about this thread is the posters who feel they can tell other people what is allowed to cause them mental distress. I'm a mental health professional and in my opinion it's a dangerous place to get to.

People are allowed to be mentally distressed by being in their home or living in a cul de sac.

You don't get to tell them what they can be mentally distressed about.

Can't be bothered to reference those I'm talking about, I'm not trying to start a fight. I just want those that are distressed to have permission to feel that way.

Yes, the superior lot have come out in force.

aud obviously you can’t leave your kids, but one day when I was really on the edge, a drug dealer saw me and started a chat to cheer me up.

I feel differently about living in a rough area. It’s nice to have some people blatantly ignoring lockdown.

All I can say is you’re right, it’s absolutely shit. But it will end. Hang in there.

Those people saying that this is not house arrest, I think you’re not following the rules

exercising once a day: took the kids out for 3 hours yesterday, that was my once a day. The MN "1 hour rule" exists only on MN, not in any of the guidelines.

Have more catch up with groups of friends on zoom and others because we can, usually no one is home and we see each other a lot less. In normal times, people have things to do, now we have free evenings to be with each other.

Not spending any money on commute and childcare (and holidays unfortunately), so financial situation improving until we can book the next holidays.

The weather has been gorgeous, so I can even send the kids to do their homework outside.

I don't think people know what an actual house arrest would be. This is not it.

If you want to feel miserable, go for it. No one is stopping you or pretending you are not allowed. We are also allowed to look at things on the bright side. I am even spending more and more of my time planning on the best way to leave the UK and have a better life when it's over. My life's too short to be miserable.

I get you it’s rubbish right now being in lockdown and it makes me annoyed and feel down too a lot of the time ,it feels like the government don’t take in to account the vast impact lockdown has on people’s mental health like yes we must take precautions such as hand washing and suitable ppe but to shut every down like shops and restaurants and businesses feels like the cons of lockdown are outweighing the pros on so many levels I don’t know I just hope it’s over soon too,just know OP you are not alone and maybe just be kind to yourself and try do anything which you find enjoyment or makes you feel even a little tiny bit better , right now I find myself listening to music a lot it kind helps me escape from the reality of not being to have anywhere to go because of lockdown and being in the house all the time , you will get through this OP hold in there sending hugs x

My MH suffered very badly at the start of lockdown as Routine helps control my illness, I have bipolar, anxiety, depression and ptsd. My therapist rings me same day same time every week, DH and I have a routine set in place at home now as he works from home.

I have a friend that lives alone, she has no previous history of MH issues but is finding it hard. So she has got herself in to a routine, walk, drawing, telephone calls, cooking experiments and Skyping at specific times.

However terrible you feel try and get a routine even if it’s just stuff people take for granted . Such as by 11 I will have showered and dressed. At 1 I will have eaten food and done 1 small chore. At 2 I will watch a film and then research the actors and facts about it online after. After the film I will do 1 small chore and stretch out.

I have had huge amounts of assistance for my MH, routine and changing what your doing if your mind starts to wander is a key component. By changing what your doing I mean stuff as trivial as watching tv, to standing up to make a drink, to folding tea towels.

I totally get it @Minorchord and am very much struggling with it too 💐