I feel so defeated today. Aibu to ask whats made you feel done today?

[cultkid]

I feel down because my three year old is genuinely the most exhausting child. He is so defiant. Everything is no. Every thing I ask him to do he won't. He's been constant today and I have a fever of 39 for the 4th day I am tired.
I'm worried about money and how to float ourselves through this Covid Hell.
I am worried about when I can see my parents next.
My back hurts. I really have lost my motivation today and feel sad and scared.
Whats Been making you feel defeated today? I can't be the only one.

Hope you feel better soon op.

Feeling the same this afternoon. 2 year old is non stop, he can be the most loving little boy but Jesus he has a temper. The constant NO, screaming, throwing things, hitting his sister gets me so down sometimes. His sister is 5 and has started doing the most awful screeching sound I have ever heard. Every time I've heard 'mooooommmmm' today I've wanted to scream.
Also missing my family so much. Other adult conversation, face time is nice but it's just not the same is it.
Tomorrow is a new day

You both sound like you have covid? Phone your GP. And self isolate.

Cut some slack and cuddle up with a story.

Make sure he’s not dehydrated.

I hope you feel better soon.

I was doing ok until I went for my daily exercise and realised I’m so fed up of having to constantly make sure I don’t get too close to other people, it’s a small thing but it really got to me today. I just want to be able to walk past someone, or even better, stop for a chat next to someone I know - not 2m away so I have to raise my voice which feels so unnatural.

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@NellGwynsPenguin I don't think he has Covid?
I hope I don't have literally Been in the house for a month now 😭😭💜

My 2 (nearly 3) year old dd. She's a wonderful child really but she's so fed up. She's drew all over the ottoman with pink lipstick, threw her toys everywhere, screeched for chocolate and refused to wear clothes. She's currently wandering round naked covered in felt tip.

The 3 month old by comparison is an angel, even going through a wonder week, he's just a cuddly, jolly little guy.

I ended up raising my voice at dd today, I was just so fed up the mess, the constant whining and spoilt ness although I know that's my fault. Felt awful afterwards but tbf this is the best behaved she's been all week.

Hang in there, hope you're feeling better soon

My defeated feeling arises from...

I'm supposed to be part of planning & local or even national or even international covid response... I'm not sure what to prioritise right now. This feels defeating. So many information needs and very fuzzy which ones I can & should work on.

Oh and I can't f'ing type, right, now. The Cognac I had earlier probably doesn't help.

6 year old ds with asd has been non stop since the second he got up. 13 year old dd has been horrible to everyone in the house all day. 9 year old dd can't help but respond to 13 year old. 2 year old ds is going through a horrible stage, which gets worse when he copies 6 year old ds. And after 3 weeks stuck in the house, as don't want to take baby dd out so I can't go out either in case she needs feeding, I am seriously struggling with cabin fever today.

I’m already failing my diet on day one. I went from a 10 to a 14 In six months. I hate looking at myself in the mirror.

I've written out the funeral I'm going to lead tomorrow. The decrease is local and a lovely man and it is such a shame that only 10 people from his family and friends can be there. I've done so many funerals in my life as a priest and this the first socially distanced funeral I'm doing. More in the pipeline.

I wonder if there is something about it being the week after Easter that makes it all seem a bit flat.

worrying that life actually wont go back to normal after this and whether me and my daughter will be paying back for this for the rest of our lives (sorry for doom and gloom but if you want real answers...)

on a plus side, I am glad that the last 3 weeks have been done and fingers crossed it's only another 3/6 weeks left on isolation. theres no getting away from it though - for most atm this is very shit times and you are definitley not alone

I'm finding it all so tricky. My dds are so fed up. I'm really starting to worry about the economy. I miss my parents. My aunt is in intensive care with the virus. I'm scared and don't see a way out of this mess.

Have two toddlers and they are driving me insane..normally they are lovely. Since lockdown all they do is fight, bite, scream, cry and then run around like lunatics. Do loads with them but the day never seems to end. I want to hide in the wardrobe. Hope you feel better soon op and remember all toddlers are mental at the moment.

Our dog came back today - he has been away for a few weeks (pre lockdown) due to a house move/building site. He came back and was such a fucking nuisance. It’s not his fault but coupled with a toddler in a mood and being pregnant and my pelvis starting to hurt it was all too fucking much.

Hug to
You and everyone else having a shit day.

Feel so down today. Reading all the comments on the school threads when I am working the best as I can in horrendous circumstances, looking after my own young children, worrying about my mum in her nursing home whom I haven’t spoken to in a month (totally incapacitated), and the abuse my profession is getting makes me think fuck it all.

@motherrunner

I agree. I'm so tired of being part of such a hated profession. I actually think nobody would really care if many teachers died as a result of schools going back too early.

Also as a supply teacher working directly for a LEA (not via an agency) I don't think I will be either paid nor furloughed. So I now have no income.

Brilliant.

My 13 year old has reduced me to tears today. She has conversations with the rest of the world. Her dad included but she actually grunts at me. Or shouts. At dinner I just walked away, choking on a bit of bread because my throat was tightening up. I cant engage her. At all. It's her birthday this week and it's all so awful.
I am on some heavy meds which dont help. I stopped drinking 8 years ago and smoking 4 years ago but by Fuck I would do serious damage to a cold bottle of wine and 20 Silk Cut right now.
In the garden roaring at the moon.
Chocolate is not cutting it.
Or meditation or yoga.
My DH just sits there looking blank. I want to kick him up the hole too but. .
My eldest daughter is pregnant and I havent seen her and I miss her.
And I dont know when I'll see her.
I've been crying on and off all day

So many things have defeated me today. Work was upsetting (I was reading a heartbreaking report about Covid’s impact on poor slum dwellers in other countries), my 8 yr old DS is pushing and pushing every button I have, and has slammed his door and told me he hates me so many times I am losing count. And then my husband had a paddy this afternoon and started taking all his woes out on me culminating in “he wish he hadn’t married me”. WTF am I supposed to do with that? I’m in bed already. I’m done today.

The vast vast majority of us really appreciate teachers, carers and all other key workers. My 2 teens are cracking on with their schoolwork without objection. I'm grateful for the work being set for them which means I can get on with my job.

It is difficult, no matter what your circumstances. I am intermittently enjoying the time at home, cooking from scratch, reading in the garden and generally living a simpler life, but can't wait for a city break, meal out with friends or trip to the beach. Or even just being back at the office with my lovely colleagues.

It feels like we've been living this way for a long time now.

My house cat escaped a few days ago and we’ve had another bout of walking the streets shouting his name. Know he’s out there terrified somewhere lost and unable to get home. Feel pretty defeated about that.

18 yo dd has had a screaming session about how dysfunctional our family is, culminating in sobs. Tbf she has got a point
12 and 10 yo dses are just fighting over the ps4 and refusing to do anything else. Fil has corona and is in hospital. My best mate is working on a covid Ward in another hospital.
The dog keeps running away. I’m not sleeping very well and just can’t find my oompf to keep everything ticking over.

@carlywurly

That means a lot. I’m hoping the families of the students I teach feel the same way. I’m also very appreciative of the work sent for my own children.

Sorry to hear of us all struggling with our own children. My son is undergoing assessment for ASD and his behaviour is becoming increasingly difficult to calm. I teach live lessons (obviously not over Easter) and I feel sick at the thought that he has a meltdown whilst I’m live.

We need more kindness threads, it’s been a long 4 weeks and we’ll only get through to the end with support.

my DS16 has been really pushing it today. He is wonderful most of the time but is in a shit of a mood today and I'm fed up with it.
And I'm lonely. I haven't seen my BF for over three weeks now and I miss him.
But other than that I am getting through this remarkably unscathed and for that I am very grateful.

Trying to both wfh with a 2 year old in jobs that have got busier and more demanding with Covid-19. She is going through a sleep regression and was wide awake for 3 hours in the night then inexplicably refused her day nap completely. I have sent the grand total of 3 emails today and the work is piling up. We are both kw so have a nursery place but doesn't feel right go send her at all for numerous reasons.
Supposed to start diet today too.
Today is another day hey... hope everyone has a better day then

Tomorrow even. Today is thankfully almost over!