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AIBU?

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To have reached emotional tipping point

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PrettyTricky · 06/04/2020 22:10

Been pretty stoic the last few weeks, tried to make the most of lockdown at home, homeschooling, business worries. Have played down worries about elderly relatives, especially isolated parents in a different part of the country and have organised shopping for them. Have just been bloody getting on with it and following the rules.

But today I seem to have hit a wall and am finding it hard to cope anymore. I think the news about Boris has made it seem very real, and the sense of disbelief about all of it is suddenly hitting home.
Plus, I was meant to be going to Venice today on a special holiday, but that's irrelevant really given the sufffering going on.

Just feel like having a cry and am very worried about everything really. Not sure what to do with myself.

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PrettyTricky · 07/04/2020 08:58

Thanks for all your messages. It's just so surreal and upsetting. I ended up going to bed last night and having a cry which probably did help. I also had a pounding headache yesterday and keep being paranoid that every single ailment, sneeze or odd body sensation is the start of bloody corona, so the extra worry didn't help either.

As much as I don't want anyone else to be experiencing upset, it is a comfort that I'm not alone, albeit I don't know any of you in real life.

Am much better this morning, but now the day is looming ahead and there's not even homeschool to look forward to, lol!
Perhaps that's also a problem yesterday, as at least the last fortnight has been punctuated with a type of school routine. The deal was that the usual timetable was adhered to using the work given on Google classroom and workbooks, with a bit of help from me. Now it's the holidays, we should have been away, and it feels like anything but a holiday.

Poor Boris really threw me yesterday, that's been a big mortality check and suddenly is very real. God, what if the poor man dies?! I think most of the country would be in absolute terror at that point. I mean, fucking hell, how is this possibly reality?? I feel so sorry for his pregnant fiancé, his children and family and also every single family in the country who are going through grief over a lost loved one. This bloody virus hits people in very different levels of severity. It seems a lottery at this point.

I am so worried about my elderly parents, I'm scared I'll never see them again.

I'm worried about work and what kind of economic wreckage we will be left with.

Oh, and one of my teeth is niggling me - wishing I'd had that filling the dentist said I needed at last check up!

What a shit show. Even grocery shopping has turned into a traumatic torture, never mind the drama of trying to get an online slot for my parents.

Anyway, having a coffee and some toast and will trynot to get bogged down in the negative and focus on the fact that this cannot last forever and that there WILL be better days and normality again. As the Queen said....we will meet again (even that made me weep on Sunday).

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MarshaBradyo · 07/04/2020 09:07

Me too op and when I heard it again, and when I just read it. I think it’s an automatic response now! My family are o/s and feel the same.

Feel a bit better today too. But Boris this ill is a big blow. And worse if it gets worse.

pigsDOfly · 07/04/2020 09:42

Glad to hear you feeling better this morning Pretty.

I think most of us are like that, good days and bad days.

All we can do at the moment I suppose, is to get through the bad days and make the most of the good days.

I just wish I didn't feel slightly weepy all the time, even on the good day.

This has to pass at some time. Just keep holding on

joystir59 · 07/04/2020 09:51

I'm dealing with our flat roof being taken up to reveal rotting timbers, whole thing needs to be replaced. Plus partner very seriously unwell, (not the virus) plus all the worry about the virus and bringing it home. Wishing Boris well but won't be clapping for him

ssd · 07/04/2020 10:03

I think if he dies so many of us will fall apart. Its nothing political, its what he stands for.

TheStuffedPenguin · 07/04/2020 11:14

it opens up questions such as ‘if a PM can become so ill, then what hope do I or my loved ones have?’

Surely this shows the case for self isolation ?

AltoClef · 07/04/2020 11:19

Surely this shows the case for self isolation?

I am working from home but my DP is a keyworker so he is still going out to work every day and bringing back whatever he may be picking up back to the family home. Not everyone has the opportunity to just close the front door to the world.

TheStuffedPenguin · 07/04/2020 11:46

Perhaps he needs to self isolate when home @AltoClef ?

Whoareyoudududu · 07/04/2020 12:03

I cried on the day it was announced pregnant women had to isolate for 12 weeks. I just couldn’t wrap my head around being stuck inside the house for three solid months like a prisoner. I felt very down for the first week, missed work and our usual family routine a lot.

Feel ok now, think I’ve got used to life as a prisoner .

Femail · 07/04/2020 12:31

I've cried alot specially having to go to work as I work in a supermarket and if I catch it who will look after my disabled dd. Also had a massive panic attack yesterday at work as so many ppl in one aisle while I was helping do a job there and people coming so close. I felt closed in and couldn't escape

LyingWitchInTheWardrobe · 07/04/2020 12:39

Crying is good and it's necessary when we feel it is, never feel bad about that.

I find it comes in waves, I can be happy one minute and laughing about something and then in the next, completely overwhelmed and sad. I think I fear the loss of controlling my emotions as they're usually kept under lock and key.

alphasox · 07/04/2020 12:55

I’m so glad you posted this as yesterday and today I’ve felt like bursting into tears a few times. I feel it’s the constant mental load of keeping kids occupied/breaking up fights while attempting to appear professional and do my job and keep on top of the house and the toy mess while churning out food every 5 minutes (I have hungry boys!) And worrying about whether it’s safe to go shopping and what will I be able to buy anyway. Oh yes and the elderly parents who are 3 hours away and very vulnerable. I have had enough.

So thank you. It’s good to hear it’s not just me being a moaner!

WhatATimeToBeAlive · 07/04/2020 12:58

I had a very difficult day last Friday. Didn't want to engage with anything including work, partner, dog. Took said dog out for my daily exercise, went into a wooded area and bawled my eyes out. Had a large glass of wine when I got home and felt much better the next day. I'm sure it's going to come and go but know that you WILL feel better in a day or two and don't let it keep getting you down, otherwise it will be more difficult to get out again.

Peachypips78 · 07/04/2020 15:25

I find it's coming in waves- I have a bad day then a few good ones.

For me it's the unrelenting monotony of life and adjusting to a completely new way of doing things that has caused me most anxiety. Nothing is the same any more.

I work in a psych ward and we have all had to start wearing uniforms and PPE where needed. None of the activities that keep the patients going can happen, no families can visit. I am leading most of my meetings via Skype or teleconference.

Then on the three days I am at home the weekend is no different to the week and we do the same bloody things every day. A walk. Bounce on the trampoline. Screen time. Craft. IT'S SO BORING.

Chillicheese123 · 07/04/2020 16:11

I’m having a really good day today. Been in the garden and walked up onto the moors for an hour. Only saw about 3 other people, all far-ish away, we shouted a hello to each other. It was nice.

SlightyJaded · 07/04/2020 16:24

I was feeling better this morning but am overwhelmed again this afternoon. DS asking difficult questions and then that stupid fucking prediction about the UK being the worst hit in Europe that came out - and both have sent me spiralling again.

I can't stop projecting worst case scenarios. I do other stuff but if feels like a lie because all the time I am really obsessing

Alfiemoon1 · 07/04/2020 17:50

I feel the same.
I ended up having a little cry last night after I had a wobbler with dd 18 at 1.30 am when she’s crashing and banging round the kitchen making toast it’s a never ending stream of feeding and dishes and cleaning up
It’s difficult for us all she’s home from university as it’s closed ds is home as school shut so I am trying to homeschool I was working from home which at least gave me some routine but have been made redundant so that is worrying me no idea when I will get another job or how we will manage dh is a key worker so I am terrified he is going to catch it so after holding it all in the news of Boris was the final straws I think for me

pigsDOfly · 08/04/2020 09:35

Anyone else on here watching News Night last night on BBC2?

I was only half watching it tbh so didn't take in everything but was very interested to hear the presenter talking about 'the new normal' regarding emotions, and she went on to talk about how everyone is feeling at the moment and pretty much summed up what everyone, well, almost everyone, on this thread has said about how they feel.

I think we all have to understand that what we're feeling isn't a sign of weakness or that somehow we should just suck it up and get on with things, but a normal, perfectly reasonable reaction to an overwhelming situation.

I'm not saying that because it was on News Night then it must be true, more that clearly this is a universal thing and it's not just us that are feeling like this.

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