To have reached emotional tipping point

[PrettyTricky]

Been pretty stoic the last few weeks, tried to make the most of lockdown at home, homeschooling, business worries. Have played down worries about elderly relatives, especially isolated parents in a different part of the country and have organised shopping for them. Have just been bloody getting on with it and following the rules.

But today I seem to have hit a wall and am finding it hard to cope anymore. I think the news about Boris has made it seem very real, and the sense of disbelief about all of it is suddenly hitting home.
Plus, I was meant to be going to Venice today on a special holiday, but that's irrelevant really given the sufffering going on.

Just feel like having a cry and am very worried about everything really. Not sure what to do with myself.

Have a cry. It's a necessary release. Someone said we're in a grieving process for what our lives are usually like and what we should have been doing. Plus it's a frightening time and we're worrying about family and we're not getting space, privacy or time to process it all.
I know it can feel like if you start to cry, you won't stop but you will and you'll feel a tiny bit better

@ TheBeastInMsRooneysRoom the stuff about probation officers and prisonnners is interesting. Let’s hope week 4 spells some degree of adjustment for everyone.

Crying is the only thing that's getting me through this. Crying and coughing.

@Sunshineafterrain24 fingers crossed you feel better soon. Try and take it easy. I had a day out today where I took the pressure of myself and let most things go to pot and I feel a bit better for it.

@pigsDOfly hear hear 👏🏼 I agree perfectly with what you've said there is perspective and there is perspective. We are allowed a wobble without getting the "there are people in far worse situations than you" speech. We all know that there is always someone worse off but in that moment, right at that point you really just want someone to empathise and offer some support. I'm so glad OP that you got that from everyone else Unprecedented times will make even the strongest hit the wall it have a wobble, it's human nature my lovely, be gentle with yourself 😊

I cried a fair bit when they shut the schools then for bits of the first week of lockdown. Getting those emotions out helps. Felt low again on Friday as we were supposed to be going to Cornwall which I'd really been looking forward to. Dh got me out in the garden doing lots of jobs and ive felt a lot better being really productive. The busier i stay the better i feel.

I was very emotional when the schools closed as that was also the point I started working from home, so our new 'normal' started. Up until that point I was religiously following the news, and the daily updates.

I've stepped back from the news since then, I'd tried to focus just on what's happening in my own house. We are very, very fortunate in that we don't have to go out for any reason for the time being, so I don't need to worry too much about exposure.

I've taken to watching anything on tv to distract and entertain me - totally different viewing to normal circumstances but I just want light relief all the time. Taking one day as it comes, and doing what's necessary to make each individual day good. I am drinking too much wine though.

I've cried. I think most of us have. It's a normal response ,I would say, to these crazy circumstances.

A cliché I know, but I think day by day is the only way to get through.

I can only imagine trying to get through this as a lone parent. You are doing so well OP.
I'm normally a tough cookie and after 30 years in the NHS not much gets to me but I cant sleep on the nights before I have to go in to work.
My blood pressure is up and I've had what I suspect is a panic attack over the weekend.
You are not alone in this.
I'm going to stand my ground until this thing is over then I'm going to quit and do something different.

i have been up and down too.

Lockdown announcement came less than 24 hours before my period, while autistic kids were ill and off school. That was a really bad, bad evening. not felt that bad for years.

since then I have had ups and downs.

Thank you @Serin for sticking with it

I have been very stoic up till now. Hearing about Boris has really shaken me. There just seems to be no stability or certainty anywhere any longer.

I cried when I saw the 4000 bed hospitals around the country being kitted out.

I have family in big cities who are all doing a good job of isolating being cautious.

Grandmother is in a care home which are being hit hard.

I have no words.

Be kind to yourself. One day at a time is all you need to do right now.

I’m not coping
I was ok but not know
My house is a state, kids are feral and I don’t have the energy to discipline them

YANBU at all. I'm stressed about being stuck inside with everything cancelled and also scared of me or anyone in my family getting covid-19.

My advice @PrettyTricky is to limit yourself to 1 hour of news a day. I tend to focus my day on other things such as work, making dinner, watching Netflix and forget what is happening in the world. If you constantly think about everything you will drive yourself mad. You cannot control what is happening but you can control how you respond. Use this time productively to do things you always said I wish I had the time for.

Honestly, just be kind and do what is needed

I feel so sorry for anyone living in an environment that doesn't allow this to happen

This has all happened so quickly as well, I think we're all still reeling from it.

It keeps hitting me how very weird it all is. We were all bobbing along with our lives, and then suddenly we weren't.

It's incredibly hard to adjust to such a massive change. I'm not surprised we're all feeling a bit wobbly and emotional.

Boris news has made me feel the same. Should sleep but it’s all a bit much atm.

I feel the same. I was nervous before the lockdown but after the lockdown I sort it settled into my new routine of being at home and felt safer. But it is weird because physically we are shielded from the realities of the coronavirus pandemic but mentally and intellectually we realise how dire the situation is. It is just this weird kind of contrast between the almost mundane reality of being stuck at home and the sheer terror and fear I then get when I watch/read the news. Hearing about Boris Johnson being in the ICU is the first time I have cried over the coronavirus. I think it just made me realise how bleak this all is.

Just to say, you're more than entitled to . I had first really lazy day today and it was just awful.

I don’t know why, but watching really intense or dramatic films also helps me. I struggle with processing /expressing emotion so this is a weird time for me. As it is for everyone.

For a lot of people sad or intense things can make them feel sad but I think sometimes it can be weirdly cathartic. Releasing almost.

Here’s a big massive and to everyone. One day things WILL be better.

I’m the same. I’m a frontline worker but when the schools closed and my childcare stopped I’ve ended up at home with my kids. I’m a lone parent as my DH died almost 3 years ago. I’m finding this really really difficult.

Currently in tears too and my head is pounding now from crying 😢