Im pregnant. This is not good or planned. Im on the pill and have been for the best part of a decade. I cant remember missing one, the days on the pack match up. I havent been on other medication or vomiting. But how ever it has happened it has, and now i am most definitely about 5 weeks pregnant.
Im approaching 40 in a newish relationship (7 months and we live a fair distance apart, see each other a couple of times a month) i have three teenage children, a job i love, i start uni in sept to progress in the job i love. I have independence and freedom. I love how my life is. I have plans and goals. I absolutely do not want another child.
My partner has two teenage children, both the same gender, and although he has expressed he doesn't want more children, he has talked about being sad at not having a child of the opposite gender on one occasion.
A termination isnt up for discussion. Im already booked into the clinic this week for the first appointment. I dont want to talk about it i just want it over and finished. He has no idea as like i said, ive been on the pill for a long time with no other problems with it. I cant face the thought of him possibly disagreeing, no matter how slim that could be. But then i feel out of respect for him and our relationship he should know, hes a good man, i really like him, but this cant happen.
I honestly dont know what to do. Keep it to myself. Tell him now. On the day. After? I just dont want a conversation or to have to justify my decision regardless of knowing this is right for not only myself, but for the relationship we have at the minute.
Help :(