www.ryanhart.org/st-jude-prayer/
I know you said you pray to God, but don't believe in him, but I thought you might like this prayer.
Prayer to Saint Jude Thaddeus
O most holy apostle, Saint Jude, faithful servant and friend of Jesus, the Church honoureth and invoketh thee universally, as the patron of hopeless cases, and of things almost despaired of.
Pray for me, who am so miserable. Make use, I implore thee, of that particular privilege accorded to thee, to bring visible and speedy help where help was almost despaired of.
Come to mine assistance in this great need, that I may receive the consolation and succor of Heaven in all my necessities, tribulations, and sufferings, particularly...
(insert your prayer request here)
...and that I may praise God with thee and all the elect throughout eternity.
I promise thee, O blessed Jude, to be ever mindful of this great favour, to always honour thee as my special and powerful patron, and to gratefully encourage devotion to thee.
Amen.
The St. Jude Thaddeus prayer can be used to ask for assistance when you are in desperate need of help. Many people turn to Saint Jude for help when they have tried to solve a problem on their own but have failed.
Also, all going well tomorrow, in the link I've shared, there's a novena to St. Jude also (novenas are usually prayed for 9 consecutive days or 9 consecutive hours).
I prayed to St. Jude during my pregnancy, though the odds were stacked against me. I almost lost her at the end, but I firmly believe in this Saint. If dd had been a boy, I would have named him Jude.
Best of luck.