To think life is shite

[Bulbousbob]

And the daily grind until the day I die just isn’t worth it, I appreciate there may be some things in my life to be thankful for. For example I’m in reasonably good physical health. I’m not destitute. But for the love of god. My entire life has been a grind. No love in any form since the day I was born. No parents. No extended family. I’d love to be convinced I’m being unreasonable. I want to be positive but it feels futile. Im already journaling, daily affirmations, generally trying my best to be positive.

You poor thing OP. Feel free to ignore this, but how about adopting or fostering? They’re appealing for more foster carers in particular to come forward. You sound like you have so much love to give. You could make such a difference to a little one.

Aww we need puppy pics when you can. Good luck.

OP, I am excited re your rescue dog. Also great that the flowers cheered you up so much.
I agree with PPs that forcing positivity is shit. I find the pain passes quicker if I allow it rather than trying to push it away.
antidepressants have never worked for me. My dogs keep me going.

I hope you feel better soon OP

I appreciate the sentiment of struggling against the flow, I've done it my whole life. some people just seem to fall into new relationships and be surrounded by friends and fami!y. I think I am on the asd spectrum which makes life tough, perhaps you are too op. In the end I had a child via donor and that gave me happiness and something to live for, but I didn't tell many people what I was going to do because they would have told me it's not the easy answer, and being a single parent would make me more depressed and isolated, but it was the answer and I feel more a part of life now.

Takemedown That’s a lovely story. Congratulations to you on your family.

Hi op. To be honest, sometimes life is shit, but it does sound to me that you need some professional help. Please do not dismiss medication. I have been on medication for anxiety for about 15 years. My medication is a life saver.

I also think getting a dog is a good idea. I love my dog, I am constantly surprised at the bond I have with her. And she gets me out walking which is good for me and a great way to meet people.

Please get help op, see your doctor

Pets are so loving. I couldn't be without mine.

Also, animals are so much better than people

That sounds v exciting Bulbousbob. Good luck!

Bulbous, I am excited for you!

@TakemedowntoPotatoCity oh my goodness I could’ve almost written your post except I’m hoping to conceive with a donor and I am on the spectrum. I think it does make things harder. Spending time with people generated anxiety but being by yourself is lonely.

Good luck with the dog OP.

Hi Op I’ve felt very much the same for a long time. I think the “solution” (there isn’t a solution to life being shit) is to stop expecting it not to be and just say “thank fuck it’s not worse than it is”.

I noticed you work from home which as you know can be isolating. If you’re not getting outside everyday- make that change. You don’t have to speak to anyone- just get outside for 20 minutes. I see you are going to gets dog do that’s that problem sorted! another thing- you don’t seem to be tied to your location by family. In your shoes I’d move to the sunniest, most attractive place I could afford to.

Other than that just keep on keeping on. Live in those positive moments when you get them. And show us a Picture of your dog