MNers are fixated on weight, every one of these or food thread is like a party for the orthorexics. You sound like you have a body dysmorphia if you're that weight and still feel big, OP.
I am 5ft.4 in but was a competitive gymnast for a large part of my youth. My weight would cause most MNers to faint, even back when I was wearing a UK size 4.
I have a stocky build and much muscle mass from gymnastics. Even now, I'm very toned, I lift weights 3-4x/week, do yoga, go on long hiking routes when possible.
Ditch the scales and go by clothing size and muscle tone.
I'm lucky in that I really don't have a lot of 'wobbly bits' despite having 3 kids but I do have stretch marks on my belly, and I weigh an amount that would mean MNers telling me I need gastric bypass surgery and I'd be told there's no way I can fit into the size of clothes I do at my weight. I mean, I'm not 19 anymore. It's normal for the body to change with time.
It's a sad way to go through life being unhappy, OP, over something like this. I'd look to working on self-contentment.