To ask you to tell me what you're tired of?

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Just wanted to create a thread just for people to vent because I really feel I need to.

I love my child but I'm so tired of everything parenting brings. I'm tired of the endless grind of cleaning, nagging and tidying that is my life. I'm tired of having a poorly paid job I hate where I'm not valued just because it fits in with school. I'm tired of having to be sociable so that my child can be. I'm tired of having no money and absolutely nothing for myself because my child needs uniform, swimming lessons, days out etc none of which she appreciates. I'm tired of having a body with endless problems since having a child - the latest one being painful haemorrhoids. I'm tired of feeling old, fat and unattractive and invisible to men. I'm tired of feeling guilty about never really being good enough at anything and not being as happy as I should be. There - now I don't have to go outside and scream! Thank you.

I'm tired of the UK turning to shit under this horrible minority government and I want them out.

Tired of my 40s being the most miserable and stressful decade of my life. Marriage broke down when my now 9 year old was 1. Tired of having to react to the crap created by others. Tired that teaching is going down the shit hole . Tired of struggling financially. Tired of my daughter being difficult whilst living with me full time. Tired that I had to put my 15 year old cat to sleep when he's always been at my side. Feel totally alone now of an evening. Tired literally due to insomnia.

The things I'm tired of -
*My exH constantly making life miserable
*Solicitors fees
*Paperwork
*Bills
*Having absolutely sweet FA at the end of every month
*A job I hate and poor pay
*Endless cooking, cleaning, laundry and being everyones sodding house elf all sodding day
*Not being able to sit for longer than two minutes without somebody wanting something
*Rude people
*Crying all the time
*The cost of wine
*Smoking, but its the only thing that stops me being put on a murder charge
*Not being able to sleep
*Not being able to talk to someone I love about the way I feel
*Worrying, constantly
*Feeling constantly overwhelmed

The list goes on, I've just had enough really..I literally sit in my car and cry whenever I'm alone. Life is just one long endurance test just lately and I honestly don't know how much longer I can carry on like this.

Taking strange comfort that other people feel the way I do. And realise that lots of women are trying to cope every day like me. Just sorry to hear that so many have lack of support.

I am tired of pretending that my DH is a good guy and that we are OK. Having to put on a public show of togetherness.
The reality is that he is a lying , cheating piece of shit .And I am trapped by money and family obligations. If I could , I would kick him out tomorrow.
But for my DCs sake , I am keeping quiet until I absolutely have to tell them.

The strain is making me cry every day , compulsively eat , avoid people, have no energy . And I am tired of feeling shit all the time.

I'm tired of struggling financially, tired of getting up at 4.15 every morning for DH to go on shift when arseh**les round here decide to wake you up halfway through the night shouting and fighting. Tired of flytipping, flies and horrendous people. Tired of the fact that our neighbourhood has become unliveable and we now are in the position where we have no choice but to leave. Tired of telling DS that going outside to play is not an option. Tired of litter.

Tired of not being able to take a holiday or even just a day out because it's expensive and now we cannot even take the risk of a holiday because of getting broken into if someone sees the house unattended.

Tired of the daily grind of working and chasing clients whilst trying to home ed as there are no suitable schools.

Tired of being overweight but not being able to afford a gym or even go as there's no child-free time.

I'm scared of what we intend to do but realise it will be the adventure of our lives and doing it is not optional any more, it's akin to jumping off a cliff and learning to fly on the way down - but hell - I've done that before!

My heart goes out to all of you as I realise it's not just me struggling, we all deserve better.

Tired as I can't remember the last time I had proper sleep.

Tired of my dc constantly squabbling and demanding of me.

Tired of the dog barking as soon as dh leaves the house, even though I'm still here.

Tired of looking awful, being fat, drinking too much but not having the oomph to do anything about it.

Tired of struggling financially. Though we now have stable accommodation, and food on the table and for that I'm very grateful.

Tired of wanting something different job wise but not having the bravery, confidence and oomph to go for it.

Tired of grieving and it not getting any better. Tired of missing my db so much it hurts. Tired of people thinking it's been a year you should be over it. I never will be. I'm lost.

I'm basically tired of life and just enduring days until I can be with him again.

I'm not sure if its the honesty and true feelings, but a moving and even strangely uplifting thread.

@Ferfeckssake, just wanted to give you a handhold. I was where you are two years ago. It's so hard when everyone (including your own parents) think he's Mr Fabulous. And he's very careful not to show his real face to anyone but you because no-one will believe, will they? I understand the feeling trapped by family and financial obligations, it's a horrible place to be. Sending you hugs and strength, one day you'll feel able to free yourself. It's not easy but you'll know when the time is right.

I didn't realise so may people felt the same..it's incredibly sad. I honestly don't think I've ever felt this low and I've been through a lot and still only 35. I just feel so by alone, I can't talk to my partner because hes just not interested

I am tired of being disabled. Tired of people openly staring at me.

Just came back from a dream vacation, where we had a villa with a private pool. For the first time in my life, I was able to swim without worrying what people would think when I took my leg off.

I will never know the feeling of just swimming without any thought to my missing leg.

Please know that I understand my issues are not nearly as pressing as many on here. It’s just been a life time of being different that is exhausting me.

The 21st century. It's shit. Take me back to the 1990s!

I'm tired of having no friends, feeling like I'm completely unlikeable. Tired of living in a place I hate and can't move away from. Tired of no support network. Tired of struggling. Tired of feeling tired and ill. Tired of dealing with my children's additional needs with no help (in the nicest way, I love them to bits.) Tired of family politics and grandparents taking no interest in their grandchildren. Tired of having no time to make any kind of life for myself. I could go on :(

Tired of son waking up half an hour before I want to.

And of people parking in front of my drive

And of the increasing knife crime I keep reading about in the news

And of Brexit, either just leave or don’t leave

secretwitch yours are just as valid as everyone else’s.
Glad you had a lovely holiday

I’m another tired of being tired. All. The . Time. We get on with it because that’s what we do, but gosh we surely are allowed a moan. Just give me a week with nobody to look after, snacks, unlimited take away that I don’t have to pay for and a massive bed just for me. Even just a lie in? Thirty minutes alone to poo and pee in peace?

@keepingbees, I hear you.

Tired of dd being pregnant. 39 weeks now so potentially 3 to go, but its exhausting. Her mat leave coincided with my summer holidays (teacher) so we've spent a lot of it together. I'd like a baby now because in 3 wks ill be back at work

After 55 years of married life I am tired of cooking dinner nearly every night since 1964!

Responsibility, is mainly what I'm tired of. For the house, for the pets, having to deal with things when they go wrong, like when the washing machine leaked everywhere, or when some tiles came off the roof, or now we need the garage door replaced...

And I'm tired of the fact that I was abused and that no matter what I do I can't completely escape the effects of that.

I'm tired of fertility treatments and pregnancies going wrong. But equally grateful for the one that went right.

I'm tired of mental illness and taking so much medication, tired literally of insomnia and sciatica has returned so tired of that too 😆but hey ho I just carry on as normally as I possibly can!

My exH is an arsehole. He pays bare minimum maintenance and sees the DC for approx six hours one day a week. I have to drop them and collect them from the train station because he can’t and won’t drive. He moved in with his GF and her two DC approx a month after we split and my DC can’t sleep at their home because it’s a tiny two bedroom house so there’s no space. His house stinks, I can’t even explain what the smell is (like old noodles ) but I hate it and have to wash all of their clothes including coats when they return. My DC hate his GF’s DC, they just live polar opposite lives and have completely different temperaments. His GF is polar opposite to me and shouts and swears a lot so my DC aren’t keen on her either. He takes her DC abroad but leaves ours behind.

Yesterday it was DD’s birthday. He saw them for two hours then called me to come collect them because they were hungry . He’d bought them an ice cream each, let them choose a small sweet each in the sweet shop and refused to let them go on the bouncy castle and rides because they cost. Instead they’d had to play in the playground and look around boring shops for the duration- on her birthday.

He’s never paid for any extras like uniform, school trips, extra curricular activities etc and I can count on both hands how many times he has taken them somewhere since we split. The majority of his time with them is spent shit bored in his house or he’ll make them walk around shops. He pleads poverty but spends a fortune on vaping, has an expensive phone, clothes etc.

Dickhead.

Just tired of adulting

I'm tired of working my arse off to line someone else's pockets, and being shouted at, verbally abused and looked down upon in that job just because I do it.
I'm tired of the fact that the wages earned from that job pays bills and expenses that line other people's pockets and at least 50% of them are fixed and out of my control, and restriction of the other 50% makes life fucking miserable.
I'm tired of being a cog in a wheel of making money for everyone else and not having enough to live on, and being berated and called lazy for it.
I'm tired of not being allowed to be ill, and it potentially losing me my job should I be.
I'm tired of my DD being threatened with isolation because I can't afford to immediately replace a pair of shoes, and then going without shoes and clothing myself because she has to have specific things from specific suppliers to sit in a room and learn, and has never been in trouble for behaviour, does well in her subjects.
I'm tired of being fucking poor and being vilified for it, by the same type of people that use the service I work for and get a pittance for just so they can maintain their feelings of superiority.
And I'm tired of trying to do all this on about 4 hours broken sleep because it's the summer holidays and I'm kept awake by life in general going on around me, and people demanding my attention even though I tell them I'm unavailable because I'm working nights.

Bickering whinging whining children and feeling fat and frumpy, autocorrect changed it to grumpy which is also true. I'm only mid 30s 😢