Ive gambled. Once. It does not make me an addict. It makes me an idiot, but not an addict.
Name changed for this as outing but hopefully my story can help others.
Like OP and others I started with matched betting, did it successfully quite a while but then like the OP I had a gamble occasionally to. Sometimes I'd win, sometimes I'd lose. I'd celebrate the wins and justify the losses with "it doesn't matter I'll get it back".
The problems started for me when I had a few good wins, turning £100 into over £3k on live roulette and blackjack or winning over £5k on a horse L15.
Suddenly the money I made in matched betting was a pittance and I convinced myself I could make life changing sums elsewhere.
Of course that's not what happened, over a 4 year period I've won and lost 10s of thousands, I remember sitting with 5 figures in my account, telling myself if the next bet didn't come in I'd withdraw £x amount and ending up blowing the lot, then wasting another 4 figures trying to get back even.
Overall I'm now £37k in debt to various credit cards and loans and currently looking at my options to sort it, including entering a Debt Payment Programme, selling my house to pay some of it or even bankruptcy.
I never thought for a moment I'd be in this situation as things like this don't happen to people like me but one thing I've learned is that gambling will hook anyone and once your in it's incredibly difficult to control. Even now with all the mess I'm left with I still have a real deep urge to gamble again.
Please learn your lesson now OP while things are good. You think losing £200 is tough, just wait till it's £20k.