I really need to get this out and I’m wondering if anyone can help me with some insight if they’ve been through this and come out the other side!
I have a DD6, when she was little she was definitely a mummy’s girl. Over time between the ages of about 18months-4 I would say that there wasn’t a preference between me and daddy, she just preferred each of us for different things. Ever since the age of around 4 and a half it’s like I have vanished, I literally feel like I could leave tomorrow and she genuinely wouldn’t care or notice. I am honestly not saying this in a way that I’m looking for reassurance and for people to say ofcourse she would, I 100% believe this. She doesn’t want me for anything, would never chose to do anything with me over her dad and I’m just at a loss. I have all but given up on attempting to take her to bed because no matter how many time I do it she will still be sad because she wants her daddy and I don’t want to force her to want me. The disappointment on her face when I say I’m taking you tonight literally rips my heart in two, I can’t bare it. Any time I say come on let’s us do something together it’s like she’s itching for it to finish so she can be with him. Anytime we watch a film together she will only sit with him. As time has gone on I feel like it’s gotten worse whereas I hoped it would be a phase. I’m at a loss. I’m worried because I also think it will either make my younger DD jealous that they are a twosome and push her away from her dad and will end up making her dad feel how I feel about her older sister OR she will copy.
I know this is ridiculous but I am just at a loss, it is making me desperately unhappy. I love my little girl but I don’t feel she loves me anymore. Aibu to be this upset?