To reiterate (again) that it is not the £65 or even the £2000 I have spent for my citizenship.
You can't compare this to moving to USA! I have lived in USA! I knew I needed a VISA for the duration of my stay.
Why is this so hard to understand?????
Moving to the UK, as open border, was like moving provinces, I knew I had the right to.
I signed up for the Home Office emails and was told nothing would change.
I, as I know since the referendum I had become persona non grata and I was basing my future and my family's on Government promises, managed to get my citizenship.
It is not even the money (how many of us have £2000 to spend like that), but the time,evidence, exams, trips to London for me.
I have known, from the moment the referendum propaganda started, that I am not wanted, not welcome here.
I have known this from the flags and "No to Europe" and "Leave" flags my neighbours put up, I have known this from the never-ending headlines immigration, I have known this from the comments on my accent, I learned this further last week, when 2 people openly said "I hope you speak English to your child" and "what language are you speaking to him?", strangers in the shops (he is bilingual, his father is British)
It feels me with shame to say that I am scared to talk to my son in my native tongue, the tongue of his grandfather, who also fought wars for him. The tongue of my father, who died before he met him.
I can say it louder but you won't hear it.
We know you don't want us here, you hate the idea of us.
We know that if we could go back we probably wouldn't have come.
I know that you think, after I reveal to you that I am from your favourite holiday destination and I brought you fucking tapas, that "I am the right kind of European"