To wonder what the hell I have done to deserve this

[Shitshitshitshit]

Going through my 6th miscarriage. SIXTH.

What the fuck have I done to deserve such a shitty hand? Why is God doing this to me. I am not a horrible person. I am kind, I don't hurt anyone. I don't deserve this.

This is breaking me and I don't want to keep going. I want to give up. On life in general.

I hate myself and my stupid failing body. I want to be someone else.

Try to incorporate small acts of self-care into your daily routine. Make sure you spend a little time every day to do something to make you feel good - a bit of pampering, or a hobby you enjoy, something to help your overall health.

Mouseville65 thank you, I may look into it.

I think I will ask the GP for a counselling referral. I need to learn how to deal with this if it's going to happen again and again because I can't go on the way I am much longer. I can see the person I am just slowly disappearing, I don't know how my relationship will survive if I don't do something.