To feel I’ve wasted my life

[WaitingForSunday17]

I have never achieved anything. All my friends have good jobs and went to university.
I am mid 30s - so old for a career now anyway - and have done nothing with my life. I have a chronic health condition, which is no excuse, but is at least part of the reason why I’ve achieved so little. It’s left room for not much else at times.
I have two children, I have stayed at home with them and my youngest is now 2 and a half.
I’m feeling so old and depressed. I feel I have no worth as a person and add nothing of any value to society. Also I’m boring. I mean I’m a sahm who has done nothing, ever, which is pretty dull. On the rare occasions I go out socially and don’t say very much because I’ve got nothing of any interest to anyone else to say and also it’s clear that I’m the massive failure of the group.

Aibu to think I’ve wasted my life and now it’s too late?

AbsentmindedWoman I agree totally. Everyone’s experience of chronic illness and what they are able to do or no do, are completely different. DD has the same health condition as me plus an auto immune one on top but worked full time up to going on maternity leave. I’m medically in a better state then she is yet I couldn’t work full time.

Absentmindedwoman speaks sense, OP. Perhaps medication would help to lift your mood? Sleep deprivation is awful

volunteer with red cross or old peoples home. start movement classes. look at local resources for learning a new skill. i am at uni and 37, and its been really hard.. i wouldn't say go to school, but there are plenty of jobs you can do that offer structured further learning..... comparing with others zaps energy, we are all on different trips... you ah kids, you did that, others don't, i always wished to learn to be a hairdresser... save yourself, rebrand yourself.... blossom, shake off the sofa and winter and get some movememt in. I took up ballet last year.. grown up ballet, i was always too shy to.

I have a degree and a post graduate qualification but I question the validity or worth of them given that the degree is 15 years old. I think experience counts for much more.

I know that my health condition does take a lot of time and energy to manage and it also takes up a lot of headspace. It makes me sad that my life could have been very different without it. If I had one wish I would wish it to be gone.
The fact it’s got less manageable as I’ve got older worries me too.