To ask how you're honestly feeling?

[Dinoraw]

Let's have a chat.

I feel exhausted.

Stressed out. My 12 month old isn’t well, has a horrible high temperature and has spent the day crying or attached to me. I’m pregnant and have terrible morning sickness and haven’t been able to eat or drink much today. Hoping tomorrow will be easier

Really tired and a bit demotivated.
Can't be assed doing anything

Well actually, ok. I had a slight breakdown at the weekend, as I was struggling with my OCD. Anyway, the smog I’ve been in has lifted and I am heading back to normaility it seems, at least until the next time it overwhelms me. I have a GP appointment tomorrow where I’m going to ask to be referred back to CBT.

Bit pissed off. Small house, DD has friends over and they've been quite noise and taking up the whole house, haven't achieved much and have a night shift to do.

Had such a lovely bank holiday weekend but feel grumpy now.

What a lovely thread.

Thank you for asking genuinely OP

I'm a bit frustrated, have lots going on and people keep throwing in obstacles and I keep taking a deep breath going okay and off I try again. Don't get very far then okay off I go again!

I'm actually very happy with how well I'm coping but still just have this grrr in me that's having a nibble.

And I'm slightly disappointed in my friends, I get some sympathy but not a lot of true empathy and tbh I'm a right bitch and hate sympathy it's to much like pity for my liking. So instead I skip over how I am or what's going on and focus on them in conversations.

Turnocks34 I'll be thinking of you tomo hope your appointment goes well

mamisled Your a kick ass person doing nightshifts. Hope the kids shut up so you get peace beforehand.

Really quite low and fed up to be honest.

Today a bit shit. It's been one of those days where it's one think after another. The thing that really upset me is my 4 year old has a fall today off a scooter at nursery, they had no idea. I immediately saw her eye when I walked in after lunch to collect her. It's going to be black in the morning and her eyeball the white area has pockets of blood in it. I'm quite upset that it's half term they only had a few children in and they failed to notice my baby hurting herself. 😥

It goes up, it goes down.

Three years rebuilding after running to a refuge (far away, for safety, but near one daughter) with just a bag of clothes.

Two daughters, no other family.
Aged 62
Clawed my way back. Housed. Job. Promoted.

Some days I feel fine.
Some days I long for the end.

Of course the end can't happen yet because I have daughters. When I left, I thought that that was my punishment. I had to stay alive. My 10 years with him was so dark, I find it hard not to minimalise it.

So, reviewing what I just typed.

Most days good.

Heartfelt love to each of you.

I'm 24 weeks pregnant which may explain most of the following:

• Tired
• Irritated with DH because he's been off today and done fuck all around the house so I've had to do it all when I got home from work
• Hate my job, can't wait to finish but worried about money for when I do
• Lonely. I have zero friends and no time to make any because I work 6 days a week and do everything else on Sundays