To ask how you're honestly feeling?

[Dinoraw]

Let's have a chat.

I feel exhausted.

Utterly shit and anxious. I have my best brave and happy face on in the real world and am definitely ‘fine thanks’.
I actually think I feel a bit better just having written down how I really feel.

Thanks all. She was wonderful. I’m having a bit of a run of losing old friends to cancer. I’m in my early 30s and didn’t expect to have lost so many so young.

Everything else is in perspective at least. I have the usual struggles but they’re not getting me down too much.

Shit.

DS behaviour has ruined this bank holiday weekend, but more than anything I'm confused and upset as to why he's acting this way. I just want my baby back 😞

I also really don't want to go to work tomorrow.

I also have some gynae issues at the moment (CIN2 awaiting treatment) and that's playing on my mind. I've been worrying a lot lately.

Desperately stressed and worried, but every day I paint on my red lipstick smile and perform for the crowds (teacher). I feel completely unsupported and quite scared, but no-one really realises. I don’t think anyone cares.

If anyone asks, standard reply is 'not too bad thank you, how are you?'

But really I'm feeling quite down. My DP is drinking more again, blames his shift job, doing anything from 40-80 units a week. More often the higher end. Keeps saying he will cut down, he know he needs to & when he says it, I know he means it but addiction is a terrible illness.

Other family issues including a separation in my family which is upsetting an elderly relative. My DS has been hard work these last 10 days or so, playing up etc.
I keep telling myself there's brighter days ahead & there's always people in worse situations. Hugs for all of us who say we are ok but aren't x

Not bad. Me and DS had a ‘screen-free day’ and I got shed loads of stuff done which I’ve been putting off for weeks. But also slightly anxious in the realisation that screens really are taking up far too much of my free time.

I have loads of niggles and stresses - debt, worries about job, work I haven't done. I just don't think about them. It's a skill I've always had but perfected in my 40's.
I am in my lovely home, enjoying wine and TV, a bit sunburnt after a wonderful sunny weekend. Here and now.

Overwhelmed, lost, frustrated.

Feeling tired, sad, guilty and fed up.

Had terrible day with ds who woke up in a foul mood and didn't improve. Resisted bedtime for 2 hours whilst bring rude and troublesome, resulting In me losing my shit a couple of times at him (shouting not hitting or anything but now feel guilty for not handling better) need to be more zen.

Life's hard at moment but usually don't let it get me down tonight it's won

Worthless.

Peckish

Extremely anxious. Worried. Unsettled. Desperately trying to fathom how I can afford to give up work as it's just too much to cope with on top of all I have going on but knowing I can't. Wishing for a miracle.

At the same time I know compared to many I have to easy.

Truthfully... bored, fed up, stuck in a rut, lonely, bored of moaning about being bored but don’t know how to change it...

But yeah, I’m fine thanks!

Complete failure. Should never have had kids. Can't do it.

Anxious and tired. DD1 has Aspergers and some difficulties with anxiety, and she is away on a school camp. The school have been fantastic, very accommodating of her needs, and her teacher has text me with lots of updates, but I feel like my heart is going to jump out of my chest and I feel that odd internal humming sensation that you can feel with anxiety. It isn't that I'm worried about camp, more that I'm waiting for the phone call to go and get her.

Also feeling fat and frumpy and a bit overwhelmed. I am in desperate need of new clothes (I literally own two pairs of jeans, five t-shirts, three fleeces/hoodies, a waterproof coat, a pair of trainers, walking boots and wellies), but I have no idea where to start. I was thinking of starting a thread on Style and Beauty for advice, but am worried I might feel worse if I don't get any replies!

Calm. Had a long walk and a massage today so how bad can it be? And actually managed to spend a bit of time with ds (watching a film but whatever) which I've been worried that we weren't doing enough of. But a huge hollow gap in the middle of the day when I went to visit dh's grave. Felt dark and afraid. It still feels such a short time since he died - just coming up 4 months. I've got so many years to go without him.

In loads of pain and stuck on sofa.
I have a condition that makes my muscles weak. Last night I fell over and broke my ribs and my shoulder.
It is coming up to 2 years since my son died and it is all just crap.
I have no idea how I am going to get to my next 4 hospital appointments.
I am fed up.

Anxious. Anxious all the time.

Scared and feeling sick to my stomach. My ex is blaming me for all of his problems. Again.

Struggling. Currently looking for a job after 10 years at home with dc.

Dd1 is almost certainly ASD but getting an assessment seems impossible so we all just have to live with the meltdowns and try to manage her. My other dc miss out as I'm constantly having to deal with her.

And I'm lonely. I have no confidence, few friends mostly just acquaintances i don't think I matter to anyone. I'm trapped in a relationship i no longer want to be in, never was interested in sex but is even harder now it's just a duty to try and keep things together. I can't leave so am stuck. He's not a bad person id just rather be on my own.

@3luckystars That video has absolutely made my day. I was about to post that I was feeling sad and overwhelmed, I can honestly say I'm now crying with laughter and so is my husband.

I'm sorry to see so many others to all

Awful. I have awful anxiety and new neighbours are seriously pushing me to breaking point.I'm exhausted and feel hopeless at our situation at the moment in general.

Fuck it, your thread got me thinking so I've written down a full version rather than the short one 20 minutes ago. I don't expect 80% of you to actually read my bullshit so please happily scroll 😊 for the other 20% please accept my apologies for absolutely boring the tits off you! Peace x

Scared about the future
Scared about the unknown
Scared about losing my loved ones
Scared I'll get hurt by another tosser
Scared of people, always assume they don't like me and will be horrible to me
Always feeling like I've made a twat of myself by saying the wrong thing, doing the wrong thing, drinking a few glasses more than I should have and acting a drunken knob etc
Worried about not having enough money
Worried about not owning a house (I'm 35, not the confused 15 year old I probably sound like!)
Worried about not having any self confidence or ability to deal with change (moving jobs in the future etc)
Worried that the lovely Welshman I'm seeing is fucking around with other women even though I've no reason to doubt him
Paranoid that if I do end up falling madly in love with him...he's much older...what if he dies?!
Feeling like I just don't fit in that much, other people seem to want to socialise and be around loads of other people. Chances are I'm often happy on my own (I'm not depressed just a lifelong introvert)
Worried that if I do end up changing jobs one day it'll all come to light how shit I am, I'll get the sack and end up stuffing envelopes for a living on £2.50 per week
I won't write much more otherwise someone might phone me an ambulance!

I beat myself up over embarrassing things that happened ten years ago. I overthink absolutely EVERYTHING. I analyse every word that comes out of my mouth when at work or with unfamiliar people. What if they think I'm a twat? Do people notice how much I trip over my words? How much I contradict myself sometimes? How deep my voice is? I feel guilty if I feel positive, like I'm waiting for the axe to fall. If I'm not worrying... I'm worrying that I'm not worrying until I find something to worry about!

Everyone comes to me because apparently I give such solid, sound advice. If you knew me - you'd say I was the most normal, stable, confident person going. I'd smile and tell you everything is absolutely fine no dramas.

I'm a 'closet' nervous wreck xx

Sad lonely isolated guilty frustrated and tired