To ask how you're honestly feeling?

[Dinoraw]

Let's have a chat.

I feel exhausted.

I'm on holiday with my dh and dc for the first time in years. They are being amazing and I'm really enjoying their company. Having a great time but realising how little time we have in our day to day lives to really just be together.

At the same same time, my middle dc is ill again. She's been having some investigations which haven't come up with anything definitive. I'm half thinking I'm just a paranoid mum and half thinking they are missing something really serious. Its worrying.

@bustopher, I'm so sorry :(

@justwaitingforaline fingers crossed for a bubba soon x

Like I have failed at life. That I have never and will never know love because a childhood of emotional and physical abuse and neglect has left me too frightened to trust anyone...like I will never be happy because changing my thoughts and my life just seems terrifying.

Fucking hell FrogCow, I feel like that myself a lot but have you confided in others at all?

@littlelamb

Me too. Gone from living in London, in a very sociable industry, huge circle of uni/ industry friends, charity work, gym class mates, active in local community....

To having DC, separating from DP, leaving London, living in the arse end of nowhere nearest towns are absolutely dreadful, in a sociable industry but do bare minimum of social functions due to childcare, no friends and no time to make any (between toddler and work, there's not much time).

I am horrifyingly lonely- and have absolutely no possible way of doing anything about it right now. I feel so very sorry for DC - and so very glad he at least, has his nursery nurses and other baby friends to break up the mundanity of a life effectively, just with me.

I'm crapping myself as I have to present to The Board tomorrow - my boss is on holiday and volunteered me. And my back hurts. Other than that, just hoping I'll sleep well. I'm sure others have it worse...

Alone, lonely tearful very hurt ex said some really means things today about me when I had pnd years ago and about when I had stress when he was threatening to leave me that he said family members said about me. I have no one to turn to in real life.

Also anxious about my future as a lone parent and anxious about managing financially.

Really tired
Worried about a lot of things
Stressed about family mental health problems

But if anyone asks I'm doing great 👍

Thank you op for starting this thread it's made me feel a lot less alone.

Oh I'm so sorry to hear that BustopherJones

Sorry to all those feeling Crappy or overwhelmed or exhausted

I'm so tired. Far too busy, it's just relentless at the moment and it isn't stopping any time soon. I'm skint this week, only for a few more days but that's having a knock on effect. I'm not sleeping well because I'm too busy and over tired. There is a lot changing over the next 6 months and although a lot of it is positive it's still scary. I feel like I'm part of a process I can't control atm even though it is something I've been actively working for for years. I've got some really good friends in the same position which helps but I just want a break.

Thanks for the catharsis op.

Narwhal,a loved cherished baby won’t know mundanity,he’ll know love,hugs with mum and feel secure
His routine,your love,that’s all he needs
Be kind to yourself,you don’t need to live in zone2 to be top mum

Trapped.

@coffeemachine no not really. Can’t really either, single parent, just need to keep on keeping on for ds’s sake. My GP knows some of it, am on meds, he’s referred me into the local MH services. Bit terrified of that.

Thank you @Dinoraw

@bustopher

To all of you who are feeling sad,stuck or overwhelmed,be kind to yourself
Breath by breath,second by second whatever it takes to get through

Hot (slight accidental sunburn). And my back is killing and I wish the pain management referral would hurry up!

Parent woes so shit tbh.

@Narwhal that sounds tough on you, but your toddler isn’t missing out. I bet they love life with you.

Fat and ugly.

Irritated beyond belief at myself for not just pulling my finger out and losing some fucking weight. It's not that difficult, I'm just a greedy pig.

Really rubbish today if I'm honest. In the middle of an early miscarriage and then my mother who I am NC with sent a really abusive and just horrid email out of the blue. I know that these things happen and that I am far better off with my mother in my life, but still, not an easy day.

Hope those having long/bad days and who need a break have better days soon. X

Fed up
Ill
Sad
Exhausted
Lonely
Bored...Well you did ask.

Proud.
I'm three weeks into not smoking and have installed a blanket ban on gambling apps.
It's a new start and a new me,

On the flip side
Also feeling itchy and irritable and wanting to do the things I can't. But I know I need to reprogramme my brain. It'll take time but I owe it to me

I'm not even sure how I feel!

I've had a really stressful time recently and nothing in my life is secure or certain. My cousin (who is more like a sister) who is in her twenties has lymphoma, which is a big worry but I also know that I'm lucky to be physically healthy. I am confused about my future and wish that someone could help me to plan what to do next!

Today wasn't too bad, I didn't achieve anything but watched some TV programmes with my family this evening and had bolognese for dinner (which I love).

Today was just another day in my life but I always feel worried about what tomorrow will bring!

Struggling to cope with the masses of shit this week.
I could write a script for an episode of Eastenders at the moment.