Not to feel happy for Ruth Davidson?

[highinthesky]

I have no love for Conservative politics but I have long thought that Ruth Davidson is a force for good.

I am also overjoyed when I hear that friends are expecting babies. I'm always pleased for acquaintances or even public figures that I've never met when details of a new baby are revealed. Having a child is a magical, wonderful part of life.

My natural reaction to the announcement of Ruth Davidson's pregnancy is not happiness, but surprise and then envy. She's such a capable and warm person, my logical brain knows she would be a good parent. So why was my response so dissonant?

This is so unlike me. What is wrong with me?

[SleightOfMind]

You mention both RD’s and your ages early on.
At 44, we’re moving on to a new identity that doesn’t involve creating new life. It’s both a loss to be grieved and an opportunity to be welcomed.
The reasons for your reaction are to be found in your own life.

[highinthesky]

It was just an initial reaction, and it did reflect on me. RD can't be blamed for living her life the way she wants to! Any lost opportunity is mine alone.

The feeling wore off fast and I wish her well.