Oh FUCK - husband just overheard me having a conversation with myself!!

[DyingOfShame]

I am SO embarrassed right now.

The imaginary conversation was between me and a singing idol of mine. We were collaborating on something together when he suddenly announced that he had feelings for me and could no longer work with me, didn't want to cheat on his wife etc.....

I thought my husband had come up to bed 10 mins earlier and only realised when I got upstairs, that he was actually sat in the room off our kitchen!

FUCK!!! This is mortifying. He hasn't mentioned it but he surely heard me!

AIBU to run away and never come back?!

I have various imaginary lives based on TV shows or books I've read. If I can't sleep, I act them out. Doing it in your head just isn't the same.

When I'm on my own I sing to the cat and occasionally do a dance for him like the farmer does for the pig in "Babe".

I’m with Kim.

Nucking Futs.

I have a running commentary in my head all the time, I might have similar thoughts to you, but it’s a WHOLE different ball game acting it out.

And what is wrong with being weird kimanda?

Erm, so I'd dropped DS off and was walking home, with my headphones on when Pink comes on. And in that moment I am Pink. So I do a spectacular performance whilst walking, with dramatic hand movements (but not dancing as I can't dance, and not singing out loud, just mouthing, as no one wants to hear me sing, much as I like to think I am Pink!)

I return in the afternoon to pick DS up and his head asks me what I was listening to on the way home as he'd seen my wonderful performance.

He didn't seem at all perturbed when I told him I was being Pink. He probably does the same thing. Maybe not Pink though.

I often have many famous people who want to be my boyfriends. It's a hard life being a famous rock star in my imagination.

I do this! I don't think it's that weird as long as you know it's fantasy. I have lots of ideas for a novel I want to write and sometimes act out different scenes and do the voices. My old housemate's boyfriend caught me once. I cringed, I didn't know he was in the house!

Haha that's hilarious. Poor you OP. This isn't a sign of mental illness it's just a slightly over exaggerated imagination and sort of urge to act it out. I often have imaginary conversations with myself in the car ( not putting on voices of others though, more say a discussion with someone or putting my side of things to someone )
It does sound mortifying if he doesn't know that you do this and if you can't laugh it off.
Ever thought of going into the theatre?

I'm living a LOT of different lives in my head. Many tv/film/book characters are involved.

I've NEVER acted them out. I'd die of shame if anyone heard!

I was thinking I'm just not as weird as you when I remembered that I put the radio or cd on in the car when I'm daydreaming just in case my DH suddenly develops telepathic abilities and hears what I'm imagining.

Look, I know that sounds mad and couldn't possibly happen but better safe than sorry!

I've done a few cleaning programs too. Kim and Aggie style. Few radio interviews followed regarding my success.

Didn't get caught on those ones

Mutter to self regularly but never had full blown imaginary back and forth conversations with voices.

Sounds fun though.

I might like to try that but I have an ever present dog who gives me a quizzical yet withering look. Never mind your husband, thon terrier would make you feel 2 inches tall so I'll have to pass.

Christ, I spend about an hour a day doing this, more if I'm driving a lot. My Hv went nuts when she found out and contacted the mental health crisis team, who told her to fuck off and stop getting involved in things she didn't understand

HappyDays - I'm torn between going with your excellent suggestion or just admitting that yes, I was having an elaborate made up conversation, playing the part of two people and try and laugh it off?!

More importantly why the hell hasn't he mentioned it?

I'm so glad there are other people who this

Also it is a lot of fun to do it. However, the key is not getting caught

Cold - I'm intrigued, how did your HV find out?! Were you caught mid convo?

DyingOfShame, do you read a lot? And did you have a standard calm and stable childhood?

I mean, I know my daydreaming is bordering on the maladaptive but my homelife was sometimes not very nice when I was a child, and I used to escape into books and humming to block out sounds that distressed me. Now my life is lovely, but I do still hum when I read and act out exciting scenarios (in which I am usually the hero) like a child. I do feel silly when I'm caught but my kids have resigned themselves to their crackpot mother and my partner knows I'm weird and likes it.

More importantly why the hell hasn't he mentioned it

My money is on him doing it too. He has a whole other life he acts out while you're not home, in which he is married to Cheryl Cole.

@DyingOfShame I talk to myself too and I can have full convos in my head and sometimes words sneak out. Do you have a pet? I have a cat and I pretend it was her not me haha

Weird. I've seen a very similar thread in the last year too. I could have sworn it was almost exactly the same scenario!

She found out because I told her - I didn't realise she would go off at the deep end, I just said something like "Oh now I can talk to myself and everyone will think I'm talking to the baby!" and she started probing ,like when did I talk to myself, why, how long has it been happening (always!)

the mental health crisis team rang me later that day and asked to talk to me about it, and she had reported to them that I was hearing voices! I assured them I wasn't and they assured me in turn that they would ring her back and tear a strip off her for butting into things she doesn't understand.

by the way, they said it's a common stress mechanism and that people who do it are often 'rehearsing' their responses to a variety of situations, and in cases where people have always done it it's just a childhood habit, like thumbsucking, that never got dropped

I've always done it and I think it's because I never felt I fit in anywhere in real life (I wonder if I have autism) and so I had a whole imaginary world where I had friends.

I usually do it more during stressful times, it helps calm me, and yes, rehearse how I want things to go.

I do always sing (or mouth) along with music though. Sometimes just to sing along, sometimes as part of my other world.

That's hilarious.

I caught DH at it (talking to himself) the other day and he didn't even flinch! I said are you talking to yourself and he said 'yes'

Wow, the HV was really out of order for doing that. You cannot confuse talking to yourself with hearing voices inside your head!

Interesting you should ask about my childhood. It was quite lonely to be honest, I did a lot of role play as a kid, mainly with barbies! I could make up some incredibly elaborate scenarios
I think it probably progressed to talking to myself and yes I definitely agree that it's a way of dealing with stress. I do it all the time when I've had a difficult situation with a family member, I will replay the conversation with multiple outcomes - it makes me feel better.

Tonight wasn't about stress, I'm not really sure what was going on!

Wasn't their an old thread where the Op was caught out being 'interviewed' on Woman's Hour ?

I have full blown conversations out loud , I do different voices too, depending on who I'm talking to.

If it helps Op, I make out I'm taking part in the Horse of the Year show when walking down the street , I sometimes do a little hop as I sail over the jumps

I like you, Oddcat!

I haven't seen the other thread about the lady interviewing herself, but it sounds amazing! Can anyone attach the link?