This thread has flashed me back to the worst day of my clinical career.
It was a busy bank holiday Monday - typically a crunch time in ED as GP surgeries have been shut for almost 3 days.
A child came in having had a cardiac arrest at home. We attempted to resuscitate them to no avail. My registrar then broke the news to the poor parents who broke down in a totally heart rending way over their child's body.
The whole team, 3 nurses, 1 paediatric reg, 2 SHOs were all really upset. We had a waiting room full of minor patients but decided that we needed a short break to gather out thoughts.
Several people smoked so we took drinks out to the smoking shelter (there were a few nurses left covering Paeds ED and doctors never get cover for breaks so we all still had our bleeps on). We were having a chat (current buzzy terminology would be "hot debrief") and a little cry when one of the parents whose kid was in minors came over and totally lost it.
Shouting and screaming about how long they had been waiting, that we had the "fucking cheek" to be standing out there having a laugh (no-one was laughing I assure you).
It has always stayed with me. As has the poor kid who died, I think of them every year over that bank holiday weekend and it was more 15 years ago.
I'm now a consultant. Today I grabbed a sandwich between patients, in my clinical environment and didn't even get to the loo. I worked 30minutes past my scheduled finishing time. And that was an "early" finish. I don't usually get to leave for home until at least an hour after I'm meant to.
There is NO slack in the system and people are resigning in droves. 5 of my consultant colleagues have headed off to warmer climes in the last 12 months. The pay really isn't as good as people think, we have huge costs just to continue in practice (mine exceed 3grand/ annum) which is tax allowable but otherwise not reimbursable in any way, our CPD costs are massive and again most,y paid out of income and we are all working huge amounts of unpaid overtime, the reduction in other staff groups is just pushing more and more stuff onto doctors especially consultants eg, today I had to porter two patients from the ward to theatre as the ward nurses were too busy to bring them. Waiting for a ward nurse to be free would have delayed my list (and the rest of the theatre staff) even more and meant we finished even later.
I like my job but it is not the job I thought I would be doing when I finished medical school.