OH works very long hours when at home then works abroad 1-2 weeks every month or 2.
He does a week of on call every month too and in this week he works from the minute he wakes up to the minute he goes to bed (hes in IT so works from home) and also gets phoned during the night.
I have a 7 month old who is EBF and still wakes 2-3 times during the night and a 5 year old at school.
The 5 year old goes to football 3 times a week and swimming once a week.
I cook all the babys meals from scratch and freeze them as shes weaning but this takes a couple of hours each week.
I also do all the cooking at home. My OH works and sometimes puts the older child to bed if work permits but everything else I do.
Theres constantly something that needs done in the house no matter how many hours I spend tidying, cleaning, cooking, ironing, washing ect.
All of the homework is left to me and the caring and playing with the kids. We live in a 5 bed house and every room seems like something needs done.
I try to spend my free time playing and teaching the baby during the day then when she naps ill do housework then the school run then homework then after school clubs then dinner then bedtime then housework then my bedtime then night feeds.
Its getting too much for me and I cant breathe at the thought of it. My baby is also possibly delayed which is why playing with her during the day is so important to me instead of sitting her down infront of the tv to get jobs done.
Also its not OH fault, he literally works so unbelievably hard.
So am I lazy to get hired help even though I don't work? We probably could afford it but would perhaps need to cut some other things out.
I just feel guilty and like im failing as im a sahm but want a cleaner.
Any thoughts?