To feel jealous over everything

[TinyMacBar4]

Okay I know I am being U but how do I stop it?
Whenever a friend announces they are trying for a baby I get a sickly jealous feeling. I never had the excitement of trying, to be blunt I just opened my legs and it happened. Within a month of meeting the guy. The same happened with my ex, pregnant within a month.
Now I'm engaged to my new bloke and I hate others announcing their engagement because everyone looks so happy for them but most of our family don't even know, we've not been together a year so didn't want the embarrassing comments from family of 'it's too soon' I just feel like my life is a sham

[PeppaPigTastesLikeBacon]

[pinkopal]

YABVVVVU

[PeppaPigTastesLikeBacon]

Just saw the update. I take back my post and apologise

[CircleofWillis]

Can people PLEASE READ the FULL THREAD before they respond.

[CircleofWillis]

My las post was not aimed at anyone in particular just in general.

[CircleofWillis]

last

[TickingTimeBomb2017]

That way, regardless of any mood swings and/or desire to get pregnant, you won't be able to.

That might not be a bad idea to consider in the future, when your hormones settle.

OP I have PMed you.

[Astoria7974]

I've been ttc for 3 years, so well done you for splitting your legs and getting knocked up through osmosis I guess. Not sure what else you want us to say.

[Finola1step]

Tiny you've had a rough ride on this thread but as I posted yesterday, this isn't about other people. This is about how you feel about yourself. As a first step, would you make an appointment with your GP to talk about how you feel? And your longer term contraception options.

You could also talk to you Health Visitor. You have 2 gorgeous children but you can still make choices about your life. But right now, your health comes first.

[Pippa12]

I think those that have been harsh perhaps havent read your following posts. Its pretty clear that your depressed. Imo i think a trip to the doctors to discuss your mental health is in order, to establish a new treatment regime.

If i was you, i wouldn't make brash decisions re: your partner until your feeling brighter. Your judgement on him maybe clouded with your depressed feelings. Good luck

[dowhatnow]

Whatever you do, don't marry this guy just because you feel you should. As a pp said, up till now you have let life just happen to you. Now you've got to take control and be in charge of your future.

This means getting yourself fail safe contraception for a start. Go to the doctor and ask for some counselling. Know that you will leave your dp in the near future and work towards achieving this as you get mentally stronger. In the meantime get some self help books and read them. Maybe contact sure start or some other agency that gives support to new mothers. Get out of the house everyday and do cheap/free things.

Do you have rl support? You don't want to tell people you are engaged because you don't feel they will be supportive but you admit you are unhappy with him. Perhaps they will be supportive but supportive in helping you leave him. Do you think you can't survive without a man and any man is better than no man? That's not true. See if counselling can help you. Go to the doctor in the first instance for good contraception and counselling. Maybe antidepressants might help in the short term too.

[TinyMacBar4]

Thanks for your comments, I am somewhat happy in my relationship although he is very controlling.
I need to get to the gp but my partner won't let me go so need to time it right

[sadandanxious]

tiny it sounds like you're having a really rough time of it.

It's worrying that you say your partner won't let you go to the GP. You need to see a GP. I don't have bipolar but I have borderline personality disorder. It's so important with these health conditions to be on the right medication. Give yourself a break, you've just had a baby. Even for people who don't have mental health conditions it can be very difficult.

I think you've had a really rough ride on the thread. I would strongly recommend to you that you hide this thread as it will only make you feel worse reading many of the responses. We have a lovely group over on the mental health board - perhaps pop over for a chat?

We have a support thread running. I don't want to derail this thread but it'd be lovely to see you over there:

www.mumsnet.com/Talk/feeling_depressed/2861372-What-happened-to-the-mental-health-support-village

Also if you'd like to chat outside of this thread or any other, feel free to drop me a pm.

[Emmageddon]

Tiny, I echo what others have said, go to your GP and get some support with your mental health. It's worrying that your partner won't let you go though, it doesn't sound like a good, solid relationship if he is dictating to you already. Being a single mum isn't a bad thing, better than being with a man who wants to control you.

[VeryBitchyRestingFace]

I need to get to the gp but my partner won't let me go

Please tell your GP this when you get there.