I was at my lowest ebb last night and I reached out, posting my thoughts and my intentions (suicidal). The responses all pointed me to talk to the Samaritans, which I did. I needed to express my thoughts and my intentions and I needed a reaction - positive - which I received. So I just wanted to create this thread to say thank you.
I'm in a dark place at the moment but it isn't as dark as it was last night. I'm going to work through this.