Have NC for this as deep down I am aware this is completely batshit.
I went into DD's nursery today. It was for a meeting with dd's senco (asd)
She was a little late so I spent a bit of time in the nursery watching dd.
When I left I was in bits.
When I was at school it was difficult for me to fit in. For a start I have high functioning autism BUT on top of that....
A he-man bobbed lego haircut. Dresses that would have suited a 50's pair of curtains, clumpy practical shoes, nothing girly or sparkly and I was torn to pieces by other girls.
Now fast forward to today and dd was sat on her own, in mismatched clothes because frankly anything she'll actually wear is a win (refuses), hair just brushed and her favourite wellies.
There was a gaggle of girls (yes I know, I know they are 4) making a fuss of this other girl because she had a sparkly hand bag and shoes.
I'm probably not explaining this very well. I just saw dd on her own (I know also asd is a big part of it) and this other group bonding over pretty hair clips and well....stuff I just haven't been doing for dd.
Getting a brush through her hair everyday is done but no fancy plaits or anything because she hates me touching it.
Clothes: I've never really chosen any for her. Older family members have always bought her so many (plus hand me downs from friends) that I've never had to.
I just feel like it may be like a small thing but that I'm setting her up to have a harder time like I did.
Is there a site anywhere for 'toddler fashion', where can I get a spirally handbag?
Have I gone completely insane?