AIBU to think I will never get better? Repost from MH

[Woollymammoth63]

So I had a bit of work related anxiety this week after starting a new job, most of which I am getting used to but had to face new challenges which was quite stressful. This seems to have triggered a regression into feeling overwhelmed and anxious. The original anxiety was due to some life events and a traumatic episode from which I had slowly recovered the last few years.
I am left feeling a bit hopeless... Will this ever really get better? I am trying mindfulness but once the despair sets in I don't feel like anything or anyone can help.
I've had therapy, I have asked for work adjustments, I am trying to stay positive and mindful. Has anyone else had PTSD and then had recurrences when other stressful events occur?
It's exhausting and I feel in a place where no one can really help. No one can get inside my mind and take it away. I'm the first to ask for help, and I am in therapy, but why do these relapses occur?
Any empathy or similar experiences really welcome. Thanks

Sounds like you've been doing some good brain training! Some times you need to make a point to tell yourself those thoughts until they become second nature.

And you're only going to become more comfortable with the new job, so if you're good at it now the only way is up, but from a good starting point!!

Thanks Enter : managing ..mood might be going a bit far lol
Another day done ; tick

Do I get a sticker ? 😍

Good might be going a bit far I mean..

Thanks .. Promise to go in tomorrow ...

Hi enter, boundaries
Bad news major wobble today. Was in work in the afternoon just felt so anxious again. Worked as normal for the afternoon and not long back .
I know I am tired and I have to be strong but when will this work related anxiety settle?
😓😰😭😧

So you felt anxious but pushed on through?

That's actually good news.

It will reduce, and the fact that you remained functional means you are coping. Well done you. Give yourself some credit lovely.

Are you seeing therapist this week?

Yes I pushed on through. I know I should be patient but I feel I should be better by now..I never used to be like this I just can't imagine working everyday like this for however long. I wonder if it could be burnout?
I am seeing her Friday x

There isn't a set time frame for overcoming trauma. It is what it is.

Your domestic situation is less than ideal, that's probably slowing down your recovery.

You did good, today. And you will tomorrow.

Think I'm going to leave my job . I just don't like it and don't see it getting any better .

Hope you slept woolly - how you doing today?

How long have you been there now in total? It does take time to settle into a new role even minus anxiety issues...

I mean, you know how you're feeling and I'm absolutely not undermining that, but depending on how long you've been there maybe you should set a time frame? I.e. I will give it X weeks total and if I haven't settled in by then I can leave.

I find IMO I only remember the bad bits, and setting a minimum time for a new thing (job/club/hobby whatever) helps me spend enough time working at it to appreciate the good bits too...

How are you feeling today?

Hello both thank you for your comments :)
I am a little bit better today although tired.. Not long back am having 12 HR days this week .
I have been there since August so 11 weeks but had three weeks leave so only eight weeks.
I am determined to get up and go in , and only to leave this as a conscious decision if that makes sense.
I'll pm you both to explain:)

Well here I am ; less anxious but always the risk is there that it comes back if I am out u dear too much stress. Had quite a stressful day today, but you know I did get through it.
I remember when I used to enjoy work.. Wonder when that will come back. At the moment it's just about the experience..I will each week toward the end. But I'm wpbeing paupid! And I guess I'm learning too :)

Hi anyone there ? Such a bad day today I feel like I m drowning in anxiety and it's appearing from nowhere. It's exhausting :(

Hi Woolly.
Anxiety is shite; I have BPD, and had to give up my new job last week because I was so overwhelmed by it.
I personally feel that Mindfulness is useful for those wanting to remain mentally well, I think it's not very effective if you're unwell. The emotions are too overwhelming to be batted away by such a tool as that.

Hi wolly I am here, sadly in the same boat with anxiety and depression.

Just saying you are not alone.

Thank you both : this condition is so difficult to control . I seem to be getting worse yet I'm not really worried about anything! It makes no sense

I try and think of my anxiety and depression as emotions. Like any other emotion they come, but then go again. It really is horrible when you're having an episode and I really feel for you. I swear by my anti depressants and I have found CBT very helpful. All the best

Hi all having a bad weekend after having been a bit better.

Am trying a few things - anyone there ?

Hi Wooly
I have a DH and DD who suffer from terrible anxiety. Different for everyone but DH has Sertaline. Dose got titrated up and he is at a level where he can cope. DD has other medication, its not a failure to take meds to keep you well while you work out your issues btw.
Is there anything you like doing that would help you cope eg watching TV, reading a book, going for a walk with your DS.
Sorry to be blunt, but your H sounds like an utter arsehole, and very unsupportive. Is there any way you could leave him before your son is 18?
I really don't think you should live in this atmosphere much longer. Your home is supposed to be your safe place
I know MN isnt the place, but have a sneaky cyberhug x

PS...you will get better x

Thanksyou Susanne
I had several hours feeling really low but have recovered a bit now. I feel as if this trauma inside me, no one can take it away, that makes me feel so hopeless and alone.

Hi. Am taking steps to sort this out but it has to get worse before it can get better.
Anyone around to hand hold ?