This morning I got an email from 'Lucy, mother of Max' titled 'Fancy a coffee?'. I was so surprised. I couldn't think who Lucy or Max were but assumed it must be one of the mums from DS's nursery. I was very excited, opened it up only to find it's fundraising spam from the National Autistic Society.
Why would they do that? They have my details because I've had dealings with them because I am autistic. Like too many autistic people I've never had a friend. Ever. I've never been invited for coffee. Never been to a party other than family, and they often forget me. I've spent my whole life alone, apart from DH and DS. I am crippled by loneliness.
I'm finding it quite difficult to write this without bursting into tears. I think they've done a really shitty thing. Surely they of all people should know better than to use imaginary offers of friendship in this way. It reminds me of school when party invites were given out and I'd be given an empty envelope and then be laughed at.