Dh and I had tickets for a pantomime today, booked in November for our dc for Christmas. They were really looking forward to it, due to money and work hours we don't get to go out very often as a family. Dh insists he doesn't want to go and instead invites his 3 friends up to the cinema (they live 50 miles away in dh's home town) and for a piss up bite to eat 
i ask him wtf, the kids are really excited about going with both of us. Apparently he needs a break from "family life" to feel less "pressurised" fine, whatever. I'm not happy with this but we have to leave so I give his ticket to my mum instead, thankfully had no plans and could go at such short notice.
We go, the boys love it, though do wonder why daddy isn't there. I try to explain daddy is a bit busy and will try to come next time. I'm heading out with some friends tonight. (again, planned weeks ago, for a birthday) dh agreed to stay in with the kids but suddenly insists on a 'Lads night out' 
rings me after the panto to tell me, won't budge on it as his friends travelled "all the way here", so our boys are having a sleepover at granny's tonight. Thankfully they have clothes and pjs there already and my mum doesn't mind having them.over, as doesn't want me to cancel a rare night out. I feel very guilty about this, he told them previously they could stay up late with him tonight, have some treats and watch Spiderman (they are obsessed). They were looking forward to a night in with their dad, dc1 even bought some hot chocolate with his Christmas money to share with his dad and brother :(
After the panto we have dinner at my mum's then I head home to get ready. Get home and dh and his friends are not in, but have left a fucking mess in the kitchen for me to tidy up. Take away containers splayed over the worktop, the sauce of whatever they have ordered dripped over the sides of the containers, wrappers not put in the bin, the fucking milk left out and in the living room there were empty beer bottles on the coffee table. My bathroom, which I scrubbed this morning, has shit round the toilet bowl and piss round the toilet seat. Fucking animals, even my dc don't leave it in this state.
This is so typical of that selfish prick, he does it all the time. With this, him cancelling on our dc and arranging a night out when he knew I was going out, I lost the fucking rag and sent him a text message telling him in sick of him cancelling on our dc when a more appealing offer comes along, he is a selfish shit and I am not his fucking skivvy :(
He replies with I'll deal with it when I come home. I tell him not to bother his arse. Fine, he replies.
I am so upset. Tbh its been like this for a while and the relationship is falling apart. I cant see us lasting much longer. He has never been violent or abusive, just got so lazy and selfish, expecting me to do everything and missing out on things with the kids.
I feel like just cancelling tonight and going bringing the hot chocolate to my mum's and drinking it with with my boys:( pathetic aren't I?