To feel traumatised by giving birth, even though it was pretty textbook?

[Bean89]

I had my first baby 12 days ago and I absolutely adore her (obviously), but I can't stop thinking about giving birth to her. I was only in established labour for about 4 hours and did it with gas & air and pethidine. I did tear quite badly and needed stitches, but I didn't notice myself tearing and the stitches were a doddle because I was off my tits on g&a.
So why do I feel so traumatised by it? I know that there are people out there who would kill to have had a birth like mine but it was just so...visceral and painful and frightening. I screamed from start to finish and completely lost control of myself, which again, I know is pretty normal.
I mentioned to my community midwife how upset by it I was feeling and was told not to be silly. Is it unreasonable to expect to be taken seriously even though by common standards it was an 'easy' birth? Is it normal to feel like this?

Magical? Ha!
My first was easy too, easier than yours even by the sound of it, but I still felt as if I did a lousy job of it for a long time after. As a first time experience one cannot really be untraumatised by it! Your perspective changes but only with weeks and months rather than days, so try not to beat yourself up over not feeling 'fine'. And no midwife should ever, ever dismiss your experience! You can only feel what you feel.
Congratulations on your dd!

YANBU I have 5, the first three I had no second though over I just got through no problem. The fourth even though it was technically pretty much the same (short, easy no problems and no tears or damage of any kids) for some reason I would wake up in a cold sweat and cry thinking about it and I have no idea why.

when I had the 5th it was so calm relaxed and wonderful that i found it a really healing (and I am not the kid of person to normally use that sort of phrase)

YANBU to be traumatised it IS traumatic even if it goes perfectly and it is impossible to predict how people will react even if they are doing it for the 4th time it seems!

damage of any kind - not kids not sure how that came out!