To think I'm never going to get pregnant...

[Sleepswithbutterflies]

Just in hospital recovering from my second egg collection - first ivf cycle failed.

The consultant has said I need a 'full review' because he thinks there's something wrong with me as well as the fact we have extreme make factor issues. We knew about the mfi which is why we went for ivf (icsi) in the first place but didnt expect my eggs to be total crap. I'm 31, ovulate every month, have good levels of follicles.
Today they've retrieved 9 eggs. Same as last time. I've already given up. I'm tempted not to bother taking the progesterone. What's the point? Sperm are crap. Eggs are crap.

And no, I don't want to adopt.

I'm so fed up.

[PurpleWithaMysteryBun]

I really hope you don't stop the progesterone, why would you reduce your own chances by your own avoidable actions? Especially after spending so much money? I would be giving those embryos every chance.

25miu is really not very sensitive at all and hardly anyone gets a positive so early. Don't go back to the clinic if that is how you feel, but I urge you not to self sabotage.

[HopefulHamster]

It's definitely possible to implant after day 10! And I was using 10miu tests when I had an early faint positive (which still pretty much disappeared the next day in weaker wee!).

You might not be pregnant but you MIGHT BE!

You're PUPO - pregnant until proven otherwise, all right?

I didn't feel pregnant until I felt the baby move at 20 weeks, some people just don't.

Good luck for the next few days!

[Lauren83]

The idiot poster yesterday was very rude but seeing as I'm in the same boat as you I think I'm qualified to say

Bloody pull yourself together woman!!

Don't give up let's keep each other going

[VenusDeWillendorf]

Hugs to you sleeps, it's a tough road.
Fwiw we were refused ICSI and IVF as my DHs sperm were so bad,

[frumpypigskin]

Your thread really struck a cord with me as I was in your position 7 years ago. I spent 5 years trying to get pregnant and had clomid cycles and IVF. On my 3rd frozen embryo cycle I was convinced it was going to be another negative as I had a spot of bleeding at a certain point of the cycle.

I phoned my boss in tears and couldn't go into work the next day. I went out with a friend and got hammered and smoked cigarettes (even though I didn't smoke normally). I even went to see the counsellor at the clinic and was really angry and upset with her. I spent the whole hour crying.

I was actually pregnant with twins. I hope this doesn't make you feel worse (I used to hate success stories with a passion). I understand that having hope is incredibly hard but you've got to give yourself a chance.

Have a good holiday. Try to relax. And keep up with the bleedin' progesterone.

Good luck OP

[Happilymarried155]

Keep positive! I too have been in your position. It's heartbreaking and so hard but you will get there. I am currently 11 weeks pregnant with our first baby and like you had some really dark, depressing days when I thought it wouldn't happen.

Sending you lots of love x

[Happilymarried155]

Also have you discussed extra things such as the endo scratch that helps with implantation and embryoscope. I did both this time, every little helps x

[Lauren83]

I got a BFN today :(

Hope you're doing ok Sleeps

Donor ivf #4 coming in 2015......

[frumpypigskin]

Very sorry to hear that Lauren83. Wishing you the very best of luck for the next round.

[Lauren83]

frumpypigskin

Thankyou its appreciated! :)

[Sleepswithbutterflies]

:-( sorry to hear Lauren - what will you do now? Will you have another go?

BFN here too unsurprisingly. I think my gut feeling re not getting pregnant is right and I don't know if I can bring myself to spend all that money again. Maybe it's just not meant to be?

[Sleepswithbutterflies]

Oh sorry just reread - will you do the donor cycle in the uk?

[frumpypigskin]

Sorry to hear your news too Sleeps.

Are you able to take some time off so you and your partner can have some time together? Maybe don't make any decisions just yet but just take a break to recover and enjoy some time with your partner. Remind yourself that life is about more than trying to get pregnant.

Good luck with whatever you decide to do.